[intro verse] hi can I sit down and talk for awhile I need to get something off my chest if you don't mind see I've been battling these fucking demon in my head I feel like I might be losing the battle even though I feel numb and cold I'm not suicidal though well hell I already try that twice and God save me each time so I know I am Supposed to be here sorry for making a sad song this time but I need to do this song so I can finally heal from the blistering cold but hey I am still Ringmaster Sicko [solo] . . [verse] there days my heart feel overwhelmed and I feel like i am never enough wish I can take away all this pain so I can heal again but I am still stuck in this same fucking loop like I'll never be enough and doesn't Matter how much I proved or how much I work so hard I am in a constant reminder I am never be enough and I feel smaller each day in my mind I wish someone would just see me and hear me see this kid within me crying and hiding alone behind these fucking walls I put up to keep him safe but I know that will never be enough to change the damage within me so I hold with all this pain so my family doesn't know or never see me broken with inside when I am holding it all inside when I want to cry please God release me from this hell please dig me out of this fucking pain but I guess he won't because I've been praying each day but that's what happens when you make this bed of pain for yourself you must lie in it till the day you die but God I pray that's not true PLEASE SAVE ME!! [hook] I can feel the pain In this blistering cold I can feel the loneliness in this Lonely Road I can feel the darkness in the air of this blackest night I wish I can feel the warmth of the sun and feel the joy instead this fucking numbness that is so fucking cold like a Goddamn blizzard winter in middle of fucking July [verse 2] there days I think I should just vanish out of sight and be alone because I think that noone really need me and noone really fucking care enough to enjoy my company I wonder why am I still here battling these thoughts when I am feeling tired like I want everything to fall apart let it all go for a moment so I can stop holding it all in but I can't do that because I know if I did what will be the fucking point when I've been the family Anchor all this time when I've been trying so long to hold it all together when for so long so they don't know about this pain this damage so they don't see this broken boy I wish someone finally see me instead that one boy who always fuck everything up all the time oh FUCK IT!!!!! [hook] I can feel the pain In this blistering cold I can feel the loneliness in this Lonely Road I can feel the darkness in the air of this blackest night I wish I can feel the warmth of the sun and feel the joy instead this fucking numbess that is so fucking cold like a Goddamn blizzard winter in middle of fucking July [verse 3] I wish I've been seen on days that matter the most I wish was told I was enough I wish someone I love would have hold me when they notice I've been struggling in my mind fighting alone I wish someone tell me it's okay these are hard time but not your hard days so just hold on I wish someone will wipe the tears off my face when the rain start to fall I wish someone will notice my Achievements and tell me how proud they are there a lot of things I wish for I know it will never happen because Noone fucking notice all my sacrifice I've done over the years I'll just pray and wish for the days they finally see me in this darkness crying alone but for now I can- [Outro hook] I can feel the pain In this blistering cold I can feel the loneliness in this Lonely Road I can feel the darkness in the air of this blackest night I wish I can feel the warmth of the sun and feel the joy instead this fucking numbness that is so fucking cold like a Goddamn blizzard winter in middle of fucking July [solo]
