Too Many Doors

[Verse 1] I gave my good morning to six different clocks Called it a kindness, called it a gift Now every promise is pulling my sleeve And every reply makes the map rearrange [Pre-Chorus] You ask where I land I count all the hands That reached when I opened the door [Chorus] How do I choose one road without closing the others? How do I tell you the truth and still leave you whole? I wanted my heart to be room for the world Now it’s a room with too many doors Too many doors [Verse 2] Your laugh from Manila, your note from São Paulo A voice from the north saying, “Stay till the thaw” I held every story like something entrusted Then let every silence say more than I saw [Pre-Chorus] You ask where I land I count all the hands That learned to lean into mine [Chorus] How do I choose one road without closing the others? How do I tell you the truth and still leave you whole? I wanted my heart to be room for the world Now it’s a room with too many doors Too many doors [Bridge] I can’t keep calling confusion compassion Or call every leaving a generous thing You deserve more than a half-made decision More than a promise that changes its wings [Final Chorus] I have to choose one road, though it closes the others I have to tell you the truth, though it won’t leave us whole I wanted my heart to be room for the world Now I’ll be honest about what I can hold One door, one answer And the rest, I will let go [Outro] I meant to be warmth I made it a question I’ll say what is true And let that be care