You know what's fucked up? I know exactly what you do to me. I just forget it every time you come home. I got a thousand reasons I should let you go, A thousand more that I don't let you know. You got a way of making heaven feel like hell, Then making hell the only place I wanna go. You say you're sorry like a password, And every damn time I let you in. I know the ending to this story, Still turn the page and read it again. I've seen the devil in your pretty eyes, Watched every promise turn into a lie. And I could tell you that I hate you, But I'd be lying if I said I didn't try. And I know, I know, You're no good for me. But there's something 'bout the way you leave, That makes it hard to breathe. I hate you when the sun comes up, I need you when the lights go down. You break my heart a thousand times, I still want you around. And I could cry until my eyes bleed, Swear you're dead to me. But when the house goes quiet, I just want you next to me. Next to me... Mmm, next to me... Funny how the one who makes me miserable Is the only one who makes me feel alive. I can spend the whole damn day escaping you, Then spend the whole damn night wondering why. I hate the way you say you love me, Like it makes up for the things you've done. I hate that I can see you coming, And I'm still too weak to run. Love and hate been dancing in my chest, Two silhouettes that never let me rest. I keep begging God to take you out my head, While I'm making room for you inside my bed. And I know, I know, You're the worst of me. But the thought of waking up without you Hurts worse than anything. I hate you when the sun comes up, I need you when the lights go down. You break my heart a thousand times, I still want you around. And I could cry until my eyes bleed, Swear you're dead to me. But when the house goes quiet, I just want you next to me. Next to me... Mmm, next to me... Maybe I don't miss you. Maybe I just miss who we were. Maybe I've gotten so used to hurting, That peace feels worse than hurt. And if loving you is losing me, Then I've lost more than I can say. But I'd give up another piece of myself If it meant that you would stay. I hate you when the sun comes up, I need you when the lights go down. I know exactly what you are... Still want you around. And I could cry until my eyes bleed, Swear you're dead to me. But when the house goes quiet... I just want you next to me. I don't even think we're in love anymore. I just... I don't know how to sleep without you.
