Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Verse 1 I feel like I'm about to grab a gun and shoot myself in the temple All my dreams about future got done handicapped and dismantled I feel a big-ass void in my heart and nothin can fill it back tho I still keep searching for someone that can do it like Thanos I've been suffocated since my ex girl left me, I lit the candle In her birthday that I can't blow any more, I'm out of breath tho Destiny is a funny thing, I'm all alone tryin to survive on that sandal And mom started adding more, I know even thinking about it is scandal If only I had powers to open a portal and go through til I find a doppelganger I'd kidnap him ‘fore I make sure of that he's happy and her wife, I'd spank her This beat is makin me spit some unspoken shit and to me, It's a banger And honestly my shit is above standards But why do I feel this way? There's a wound in my heart and it keeps bleeding I feel like I'm belong to nowhere and I'm dreaming About havin a family, in a house, my kids and my woman But I keep bein left empty handed and I ain't believe in Any other unhappy endin in this scenario but it's seeming I'm gonna die in my bed all alone with my demons within I already lost hope, I'm overthinkin Sedatives, I dozed off, I'm sober in mins My lyrics brought all unspoken dreams and I feel like I'm wrong dawg, I'm only speaking Out what's on my mind, I feel like I'm dyin Bridge: Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Verse 2: Fuck all you motherfuckers who tried to fuck me over Fuck all these cocksuckers who tried to knock me over I know all your fuckin intentions are about you run me over And again and again and again you done me over I can't put my trust on any Indonesian or Vietnamese girl Love was a butterfly that I kept chasin but now I quit for sure All they done was ghosting me and makin me feel insecure I fuckin deserve to be God damn happy in this world And I'm not gonna lose myself over a girl one more time And I'd be so fuckin glad if I ain't sincerely got no rhymes To spend for another girl but I know I been filled with rage My lyrics exactly do what I want just like this 6-inch-blade I'm beginning to believe in that I'm in need of being greedy I'm givin some unspeakable things and you're thinking I'm needy My lyrics keep teaching'em pain and leading'em to speak freely I'm a little bit kinky and seedy then I'm pleading please gimme the real me Oh Allah please do love me I don't feel alright, I need your love within I'm not a nice person any more And frankly I'm not decent I'm gettin colder and pragmatic, I began to use people around however I want Beginning with these stupid ones I work with so please someone tell me Where the hell’s justice in? Bridge: Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Verse 3: This is such abyss that I fell in I automatically think I ain't going to Heaven Been feelin that way since I was eleven That shit fills me with rage, keeps me rappin These rhymes and lines Just shine at nights Enlight’n this mind This heart in darks I don't like this guy whose reflection’s on this Goddamn mirror But he's the only one I got when I felt so down and in tears So yes I fell down so hard but I gotta help myself out, it's real But this doesn't change shit, this guy I'm lookin at is just weird Fuck this this ain't a problem that'll be solved after two beers What does it cost me after all? I already came up here bearing Motherfucker, who the fuck do you stare at? You high? You wanna get embarrassed? My life is in ruins and God keeps chilling While this bartender serves another shot I start cheering I'm smart, steering my direction to the right Hearin voices in my head My demons’ ascendancy's quite nearin Please define happiness and rewind when it gets sublime telepathically Rhymes hitting me five million times in a day I'm alright and peaceful this time but Chorus Why do you let anyone else define your happiness? Why do you make yourself blind enough to be a pessimist? Your heart keeps beating, and sun keeps rising Isn't every second you have just a Goddamn bless, a gift? Why do you let anyone else define your happiness? Why do you make yourself blind enough to be a pessimist? Your heart keeps beating, and sun keeps rising Isn't every second you have just a Goddamn bless, a gift?
