
It's not my fate
I woke up with the taste of metal in my mouth red blood on the bathroom floor mentally spelling out words I'd never said aloud apologies I wouldn't say, no promises another way to let you down again And what I do is sin I fill my insides with sin I plunged a blade into my heart today I couldn't bear to see how you’d look at me again And what I do is sin I let the darkness seep in I carved your name into the part I’d saved I couldn’t bear to see how it ends You said I make it rain then hide from every storm I turn our sweetest moments into something sharp and torn I leave the party early to drown in quiet rooms open up another wound because I never learned to lose And what I do is sin I fill my insides with sin I plunged a blade into my heart today I couldn't bear to see how you’d look at me again And what I do is sin I let the darkness seep in I carved your name into the part I’d saved I couldn’t bear to see how it ends If I could cut this out of me the urge to ruin every holy thing would there be anything left to breathe? or am I only made of what I break? And what I do is sin I fill my insides with sin I plunged a blade into my heart today I couldn't bear to see how you’d look at me again And what I do is sin I let the darkness seep in I carved your name into the part I’d saved I couldn’t bear to see how I couldn’t bear to see how it ends

