Verse 1 I was twenty-something reckless Running hard from who I was First marriage built on gasoline One spark and it blew up Words cut deeper than fists did Pride turned poison in my veins And somewhere in the middle of it I stopped feeling any shame Verse 2 Crystal nights and cocaine mornings Smoke hanging thick like regret Trying to outrun every failure But they were riding shotgun yet I burned bridges by the dozen Swore I never needed help Truth is I was dying slowly Trying to be somebody else Pre-Chorus Every mirror felt like judgment Every silence felt too loud I laughed like I had all the answers While I was breaking down Chorus The old me Was angry at the world Half drunk, half numb Just trying not to hurt The old me Couldn’t look nobody in the eye Too ashamed to say “I’m drowning” Too stubborn still to cry I carried all my failures Like chains around my soul Yeah the old me kept on sinking While pretending he’s in control Verse 3 Cold steel beds and county silence Concrete walls and buzzing lights Nothing makes you face yourself Like being locked alone at night I remember staring upward Thinking “How the hell got here?” Knowing every bad decision Started with the man in the mirror Pre-Chorus And underneath the tough talk And every smoke-filled room Was a man scared he’d never be enough No matter what he’d do Chorus The old me Was angry at the world Half high, half broken Buried underneath the hurt The old me Couldn’t outrun all the pain Every bad habit was a bandage That never stopped the stain I carried all my failures Like chains around my soul Yeah the old me kept on sinking While pretending he’s in control Bridge I ain’t proud of who I was But I can’t pretend he died Because every scar I carry now Was earned somewhere inside And maybe healing starts When you finally tell the truth About the man you were back then And what he put you through Final Chorus The old me Still whispers when it’s dark Still lives somewhere in the shadows Still knows every broken part But the old me Ain’t driving anymore And every day I wake up breathing Is one more day at war
