My former self, whose heart was broken Was it a test from God, or the work of the Demon King? Now, I still don't know A great hardship befell this humble being I could not bear the calamity any longer I let go of your hand of my own accord, and fell into the abyss But you did not let go of my hand My weakness said, "I can't do this anymore" Therefore, you are not to blame I thought that my prayers would not reach you Is there any greater suffering than losing one's faith? I trembled at the thought, and my heart was broken Since then, I have ceased to be human I have become a beast or a ghost, something like that I devoured only pleasure and hatred The calamities continued, and I even lost my reason... I was defeated. Yet you never abandoned me. In fact, I survived even in the depths of hell. I was saved from death. That was because my mother, my ancestors, and you protected me. Someone said, "This is the Buddha's merciless compassion." At that time, I couldn't accept those words. The feeling of not being rewarded despite believing was my illness. But now I believe those words were true. By your loving whip, I entered a world bathed in sunlight. By your teaching, I gained wisdom and knowledge. I thought I had traveled the world, but like Sun Wukong, I was merely dancing alone in the palm of your hand. You truly are You wanted me to learn. When sorrow became me, and I became sorrow, You reached out to me again in my suffering. No, you had always been reaching out your saving hand. It was just that I, foolish as I was, didn't notice. After half my life of suffering came to an end, the time came to notice your light. I remembered that light, and I feel a sense of nostalgia. Everyone thought it was too late. But you never forgot even me. I have already received enough punishment and discipline. Now I can follow your strict kindness. You are a phoenix, and like that I too will rise again. My heart has been tempered, and I am who I am now. This must be your will. You know You have raised me up in this way You have transformed even that great suffering into something good I am filled with joy and courage at this great blessing Wisely, I have taken your hand again I was the one who was guilty, and I have only received my punishment I will never let go of your hand again I will hold your hand tightly I believe that prayers are heard Having regained my faith, I am now invincible I rejoice in this, and my heart is healed I will simply become one with your will I call this your will It was all your precious will I thank you for allowing me to walk that path Your will is God's love, His precious wisdom, and I am trained to walk that path
