[Intro] Clock ticks Heart skips Cold sink Dry lips (yeah) [Verse 1] Hoodie on in July, still shiver in the heat Whole life on my back, two laces, one street Every laugh sound sharp, every hug feel cheap Every promise feel fake, every secret I keep Got a note in my phone, got a draft on the desk Got a search in my tabs: “how to make it all rest” Got a scar on my thigh that nobody addressed Got a “you’ll be okay” that just added to the stress I’ve been praying to a sky that never talks back I’ve been staring at the gap between the train and the track I’ve been driving past the bridge, thinking “what if I tap?” Every exit that I pass is another way back But back to what? same bed, same ache Same mirror, same face I can’t fake Same “bro, you good?” same “yeah, I’m straight” Same shame when they cheer and I still feel blank (blank) [Chorus] Fly high, far away Never come back, never see this place If I leave tonight, would they scream my name Or just scroll by slow, say “damn, that’s a shame”? I don’t care who I leave behind ‘Cause I’m not safe in my own mind Done with guilt, done with pain I don’t think it’s worth it anyway [Verse 2] Fast thoughts, no brakes, brain burn like a chase Every “maybe” turn “must,” every “fine” turn “a waste” Got my back to the wall, got my past in my face Got my future in a box I can never quite place Mama say “call me more,” I just let it go ring She don’t know that her boy tryna cut every string Every like, every ping, every half-hearted fling Feel small, feel thin, feel less than a thing No lover, no friend, just ghosts in my chat Seen “seen” on the screen, never typing it back Every birthday cake wish felt stupid and flat Now the candles melt down like I’m watching me black I don’t vent, I don’t cry, I just joke, then I choke Every laugh too loud, every story I poke I’m the clown at the wake, I’m the smoke that you soak I’m the “he was so strong” when I finally broke [Chorus] Fly high, far away Never come back, never see this place If I leave tonight, would they scream my name Or just scroll by slow, say “damn, that’s a shame”? I don’t care who I leave behind ‘Cause I’m not safe in my own mind Done with guilt, done with pain I don’t think it’s worth it anyway [Bridge] What if I stay one more night? (one more) What if this weight gets light? (gets light) What if that call I don’t take Was the one that would’ve saved my life? What if I’m wrong about me? What if I can’t yet see? What if there’s one small door I haven’t tried the key? [Verse 3] Run laps in my skull, man, I’m gasping for air Every memory a mile, every mile a dare I keep pacing that ledge like a home I prepare But I still ain’t jumped, so a part of me cares Yeah, a part of me small, but it’s still in the fight Tiny spark in the dark, still scratching for light When I picture my exit, there’s a crack in the sight Like a voice in the static saying “hold on tight” I’m a no-lifer, yeah, that’s what I tell me Turn the insult inward, let the poison compel me But another part whispers “that word doesn’t spell me You’re a book half-done, not a body they bury” So I write one more verse, I breathe one more bar I stare down that edge from the seat of this car I’m as close as a turn of the wheel, not far But I put it in park, let it idle in the dark [chorus] Fly high, far away Never come back, never see this place If I leave tonight, would they scream my name Or just scroll by slow, say “damn, that’s a shame”? I don’t care who I leave behind ‘Cause I’m not safe in my own mind Done with guilt, done with pain I don’t think it’s worth it anyway [aucustic soft outro] [singing in harmony] Fly high, far away Never come back, never see this place If I leave tonight, would they scream my name Or just scroll by slow, say “damn, that’s a shame”? I don’t care who I leave behind ‘Cause I’m not safe in my own mind Done with guilt, done with pain I don’t think it’s worth it anyway [interlude]
