I still wake up every morning But I don’t know what for I still hear the world outside I just don’t feel it anymore I learned to smile when people ask me If everything’s alright I learned to say, “I’m just tired” So they leave me for the night There’s pictures that I can’t look at There’s names I never say There’s pieces of the person I was That I can’t find today And I don’t need another promise I don’t need another lie Just sit with me in silence While another part of me dies I’m dead inside But my heart still beats I close my eyes But I never sleep I’m still alive At least that’s what they say But something in me Never made it all the way I don’t remember when it happened When the colors disappeared When every person that I loved Started feeling far from here I keep their messages like ghosts I read them when I’m low Like maybe there’s a version of me They knew a long time ago My room is full of memories I wish I could erase Sometimes I stare into the mirror And don’t recognize my face And everybody keeps on saying “It gets better, give it time” But they don’t hear the empty sound That’s screaming in my mind I’m dead inside But my heart still beats I close my eyes But I never sleep I’m still alive At least that’s what they say But something in me Never made it all the way I miss the person I used to be I miss believing Someone needed me I miss the nights When I could still cry Now even my tears Have gone dry And that’s the part That scares me most… I’m dead inside But my heart still beats Another night Another week I’m still alive But I don’t feel that way I keep waking up And losing yesterday I’m dead inside And nobody can see They love the person I pretend to be So if you ask me I’ll smile and say, “I’m fine” Then close the door… And disappear inside.
