**I Don't Care Anyways** [muted electric guitar loops, sparse and dry] I don’t care anyways… They keep asking when I’m gonna get serious Like the clock’s already running out on me I just shrug and say I’m fine, then close the door And sit there staring at the ceiling like it owes me something [bouncy melodic bass enters, minimal electronic drums and clipped handclaps] And I know they want the version of me that makes sense But I won’t keep pretending this path feels right, I don’t care anyways That I’m the one who’s still figuring it out too late, the quiet letdown, but I never asked to carry all their hopes, so just leave me out of it [brief distorted guitar accents, vocals strain with imperfect doubles] I don’t care anyways… My apologies for not becoming what they mapped out I’m sorry I’m not the one with the steady plan or the proud updates Yeah, I’m barely keeping my head above the noise most days, but I still got this stubborn thing I can’t let die Never gonna be the story they brag about All my life I know I’ll keep saying nothing out loud [lo-fi room texture, restrained reverb, abrupt cut] I’m a half-hearted mess chasing things that might never land Most people already moved on, but I’m still stuck in the same spot I’m speaking words they’ll never really hear Everyone’s locking in while I’m still standing here with empty hands [full bouncy chorus – drums, bass, handclaps and guitar loops louder] And I know exactly what they wish I’d choose, but I won’t So I won’t keep walking a road that already feels wrong, I don’t care anyways That I’m the weight they never planned for, but I didn’t ask to be here, so just leave me alone [abrupt cut, muted guitar loops fade, intimate imperfect mix] I don’t care anyways…
