You used to take me by the water Way past when the world went dark Midnight underneath those city lights Like the whole damn place was ours I was little, I didn't question Why some days were soft, some weren't You could make me laugh until I couldn't breathe You could be the reason that I hurt And that's the part nobody tells you When somebody you love is gone You don't only miss the good things You miss someone you were angry with all along I miss you and I'm mad at you I love you and I'm hurt I remember all the beautiful And everything that burned Some days you were my safest place Some days I wanted to run How can I still need you here After everything we'd been through? Now I'm standing by the water Where you used to take me too And somehow every version of me Still comes looking here for you You weren't always easy to love I wasn't always easy too There are things from when I was younger I still don't know what to do with But then I hear you laughing Or remember something you'd say And for a second I'm that kid again And nothing ever changed Then reality comes rushing back And there's nobody I can call 'Cause death didn't fix the complicated It just took you from it all I'm angry you can't answer me I'm angry that you're gone I'm angry there were things between us We'll never make right or wrong But I'd give anything for one more ride Past midnight, just us two No fixing it, no perfect words Just me sitting next to you I miss you and I'm mad at you I forgive you, then I don't Some days I talk about you laughing Some days I barely cope You were happiness and heartache You were confusion, you were home And maybe loving you means carrying All the versions that I've known So I'll come back to the water When I don't know what else to do Underneath those city lights I'll sit awhile with you I miss you and I'm mad at you I love you and I'm hurt I remember all the beautiful And everything that burned Some days you were my safest place Some days I wanted to run How can I still need you here After everything we'd been through? Now I'm standing by the water Where you used to take me too And somehow every version of me Still comes looking here for you You used to take me by the water Way past when the world went dark Now whenever I come back here I still wonder where you are
