Hollow Crown

i woke in the fall with no ground to meet me hands limp at my sides like they forgot who i was your name was a rope around light and i wore it like it meant something if i’m still here why does it feel like i left already weightless worthless a crown made of rot dragged me down just to feel what i’m not falling falling but slower this time so i can see what didn’t survive they said it was brave to hold on but i never did i just forgot how to let go every breath is a stain and no one wants to clean it you never saved me you never meant to you just watched while i sank and called it beautiful weightless worthless a crown made of rot dragged me down just to feel what i’m not falling falling but slower this time so i can see what didn’t survive i float because there’s no one left to pull me down i fall because nothing ever held me right i dream of the surface but i never wanted it