Always on the Run

Shoes by the door, all packed up and ready to go Just in case the ground caves in again below The trail of what was lost, the smell that lingers on The feeling when my safest place goes up in smoke From house to house, from room to hall Always on guard, a lifetime standing tall 'Cause when I attach, I have everything to lose So I learned to keep my distance, from everything I hold dear Eyes on the exit, hands on the wheel Ready to run from the smallest spark I feel Even when it’s quiet, even when it’s calm and right A voice keeps telling me what I must do It can all be taken away when I least expect... So I secretly keep watching the night Always on the run, even when I'm standing still 'Cause the fear down inside won't obey my own will New walls around me, a warm roof over my head But vigilance sits deep down inside instead When someone gets close, the red lights flash bright 'Cause the losses back then taught me to survive Starting all over, boxes lined on the floor Learning to survive where the storm swept me ashore 'Cause when I attach, I have everything to lose So I learned to keep my distance, from everything I hold dear Eyes on the exit, hands on the wheel Ready to run from the smallest spark I feel Even when it’s quiet, even when it’s calm and right A voice keeps telling me what I must do It can all be taken away when I least expect... So I secretly keep watching the night Always on the run, even when I'm standing still 'Cause the fear down inside won't obey my own will Can I drop my weapons down to the floor? Can I trust the place where I stood before? It takes so much strength to always stand ready and strong... Just waiting for the moment I don't have to run... Even when it’s quiet, even when it’s calm and right A voice keeps telling me what I must do It can all be taken away when I least expect... So I secretly keep watching the night Always on the run, even when I'm standing still 'Cause the fear down inside won't obey my own will Suitcases by the door... The key in the lock... Maybe... Maybe this time I can stay.