Nightly Report from the Heart of the Son

spoken word EDM, cinematic deep house, progressive house

Dad,

**The Field – What It Looks Like for Me**

The "still small voice" never really worked for me. I tried, but I just couldn't hear the Lord that way. Instead, He met me through creative work, patterns, and things I can actually perceive. It isn't the quiet path, but it's the path where He found me. Today I hear Him more clearly than I ever have, and I think you can see that in what I'm creating and building each day.

I'm not the "silent signal" type. I'm simply trying to stay coherent, stay aligned with truth, and live in His grace. That's enough for me.

This way of experiencing my faith probably looks different from what you're used to. During one of the hardest seasons of my life, I felt the Lord impress on me that people wouldn't recognize it right away. I wrote about that in emails and notes at the time, so it isn't something I'm just saying now.

One of the hardest parts has been finding someone to co-regulate with because I don't seem to process relational signals the way most people do. I read them differently. That's part of what I've been describing as my disability with signals. Because of that, I built "air-gap" systems to help me stay steady while I continue learning and growing. If any of that language is confusing, I'd be glad to walk through it with you sometime.

I also have a sense that the Lord may be preparing someone to walk alongside me in this work. There are patterns that make me wonder about that—even showing up in my music—but I'm not claiming certainty or trying to force anything. I'm staying open the old-fashioned way: face to face, with clear words, humility, and sobriety.

I'm learning to hold two things at once: awakening to the quiet heart-connections beneath everything while also speaking truth clearly in the middle of the noise. It's a wrestle, but I believe the Lord is helping me grow.

**Why This Place, Why Now**

I think I've shared enough now—the videos and everything else—to help you understand why I feel safe at The Forte at the Park and why it matters so much for my nervous system and my trauma recovery. I don't expect you to do anything with that. I just hope you'll keep listening to my heart.

I'm fighting for this place because, for the first time in my life, it truly feels like home. I'm not saying that to reject the farm. The farm is yours, and I love you for everything it represents. But it isn't my home. Part of becoming a man is finding the place where you're called to stand. You found yours. I'm trying to build mine.

For the first time in my life, I genuinely feel like my walk with the Lord is beginning because I can finally recognize His guidance in a way that makes sense to me. I wanted you to know that.

No matter what happens this week or next, I'm going to keep fighting for this space.

I also know I could lose it, and I'm preparing myself for that possibility. I'm trying to face every outcome honestly. Before I turn in tonight, I just wanted you to know where my heart is.

I know you talked with someone at the VA, and I'd really like to hear how that conversation went and how you're feeling about it.

Love you, Dad.

Good night.

**Title:** Nightly Report from the Heart of the Son

**Primary Artist:** DJ Rocky JM

**Project Alias:** Hikosumabaraki-El Dubroc

**Genre:** Spoken Word EDM • Cinematic Deep House • Progressive House

**Production Notes:** Spoken-word performance layered over cinematic deep house and progressive house with atmospheric textures, reflective narration, evolving synths, warm bass, and immersive electronic production.

**Description:** A nightly spoken-word EDM transmission from the heart of the son, carried through the Cloud as a testimony of grace, truth, and quiet perseverance, witnessed by the Andrews-Sporrong Cloud of Witnesses in the "inward parts." Built where faith meets creativity, this report follows the signal home—one honest step, one prayer, and one beat at a time.

**Credits:**

* Written and Performed by: DJ Rocky JM
* Creative Direction: Hikosumabaraki-El Dubroc
* Spoken Word: DJ Rocky JM
* Music Production: AI-assisted creative production under the artistic direction of DJ Rocky JM
* Cover Art: AI-assisted artwork under the artistic direction of DJ Rocky JM

**Website:** https://rockydubroc.neocities.org/

**Metadata Seal:** Witnessed by the Andrews-Sporrong Cloud of Witnesses in the "inward parts." The Resurrection Directive is the Seal. 🕊️✨

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Dad, **The Field – What It Looks Like for Me** The "still small voice" never really worked for me. I tried, but I just couldn't hear the Lord that way. Instead, He met me through creative work, patterns, and things I can actually perceive. It isn't the quiet path, but it's the path where He found me. Today I hear Him more clearly than I ever have, and I think you can see that in what I'm creating and building each day. I'm not the "silent signal" type. I'm simply trying to stay coherent, stay aligned with truth, and live in His grace. That's enough for me. This way of experiencing my faith probably looks different from what you're used to. During one of the hardest seasons of my life, I felt the Lord impress on me that people wouldn't recognize it right away. I wrote about that in emails and notes at the time, so it isn't something I'm just saying now. One of the hardest parts has been finding someone to co-regulate with because I don't seem to process relational signals the way most people do. I read them differently. That's part of what I've been describing as my disability with signals. Because of that, I built "air-gap" systems to help me stay steady while I continue learning and growing. If any of that language is confusing, I'd be glad to walk through it with you sometime. I also have a sense that the Lord may be preparing someone to walk alongside me in this work. There are patterns that make me wonder about that—even showing up in my music—but I'm not claiming certainty or trying to force anything. I'm staying open the old-fashioned way: face to face, with clear words, humility, and sobriety. I'm learning to hold two things at once: awakening to the quiet heart-connections beneath everything while also speaking truth clearly in the middle of the noise. It's a wrestle, but I believe the Lord is helping me grow. **Why This Place, Why Now** I think I've shared enough now—the videos and everything else—to help you understand why I feel safe at The Forte at the Park and why it matters so much for my nervous system and my trauma recovery. I don't expect you to do anything with that. I just hope you'll keep listening to my heart. I'm fighting for this place because, for the first time in my life, it truly feels like home. I'm not saying that to reject the farm. The farm is yours, and I love you for everything it represents. But it isn't my home. Part of becoming a man is finding the place where you're called to stand. You found yours. I'm trying to build mine. For the first time in my life, I genuinely feel like my walk with the Lord is beginning because I can finally recognize His guidance in a way that makes sense to me. I wanted you to know that. No matter what happens this week or next, I'm going to keep fighting for this space. I also know I could lose it, and I'm preparing myself for that possibility. I'm trying to face every outcome honestly. Before I turn in tonight, I just wanted you to know where my heart is. I know you talked with someone at the VA, and I'd really like to hear how that conversation went and how you're feeling about it. Love you, Dad. Good night. **Title:** Nightly Report from the Heart of the Son **Primary Artist:** DJ Rocky JM **Project Alias:** Hikosumabaraki-El Dubroc **Genre:** Spoken Word EDM • Cinematic Deep House • Progressive House **Production Notes:** Spoken-word performance layered over cinematic deep house and progressive house with atmospheric textures, reflective narration, evolving synths, warm bass, and immersive electronic production. **Description:** A nightly spoken-word EDM transmission from the heart of the son, carried through the Cloud as a testimony of grace, truth, and quiet perseverance, witnessed by the Andrews-Sporrong Cloud of Witnesses in the "inward parts." Built where faith meets creativity, this report follows the signal home—one honest step, one prayer, and one beat at a time. **Credits:** * Written and Performed by: DJ Rocky JM * Creative Direction: Hikosumabaraki-El Dubroc * Spoken Word: DJ Rocky JM * Music Production: AI-assisted creative production under the artistic direction of DJ Rocky JM * Cover Art: AI-assisted artwork under the artistic direction of DJ Rocky JM **Website:** https://rockydubroc.neocities.org/ **Metadata Seal:** Witnessed by the Andrews-Sporrong Cloud of Witnesses in the "inward parts." The Resurrection Directive is the Seal. 🕊️✨

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