You say you’re good, but your eyes don’t lie There’s a storm behind ‘em you don’t let outside Your hands shake when you reach for your phone Like you’re bracing for something you already know You laugh a little louder than you used to do Like noise might drown out the truth Every promise you swear is real Sounds rehearsed, sounds fragile I don’t know which version I’ll get tonight The one I know or the one that hides You’re standing right in front of me But you’re already slipping I’m watching you disappear Right in front of me Still breathing, still here But you’re not the you I need I’d fight this war for you if I could God knows I’d trade places if I should But I’m stuck on the outside Watching you disappear Still here… but already gone You don’t come home when you say you will Your voice sounds tired, your words feel still You swear it’s nothing, swear it’s under control But I see the cracks in everything you don’t show Your room’s the same, but you’re not anymore There’s a distance I can’t kick down the door I keep counting the days you’ll change You keep counting the ways to escape I don’t know how to say your name Without sounding scared I’m too late I keep holding on to memories Like they can pull you back I’m watching you disappear Right in front of me Still breathing, still here But you’re not the you I need I’d fight this war for you if I could God knows I’d trade places if I should But I’m stuck on the outside Watching you disappear I learned love doesn’t mean you can save someone It just means it hurts when they won’t be saved I still leave the light on like that does something Like hope won’t burn out the same I’ve screamed your name into the dark Like it might reach where you are If you could see yourself through my eyes You’d know you’re worth the fight I’m watching you disappear And it’s killing me Still breathing, still here But farther every heartbeat I’d give you my strength, my breath, my blood If that was finally enough But I’m stuck on the outside Watching you disappear Still here… but already gone Still here… please don’t be gone
