I WAS NEVER FINE ALONE

🎬 Official Music Video — Coming Soon! 🎧 Multilingual Subtitles — Coming Soon 🇯🇵 日本語歌詞は下にあります。スクロールしてご覧ください。 ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 🔗 All Official Links 👉 https://linktr.ee/MCA7086 ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 🖤 **“I WAS NEVER FINE ALONE” — MC.A** I was never fine alone. I just got good at saying so. He thought losing her was the hardest part. But after she left, he shut himself away from everyone—including someone who genuinely tried to love him. Years later, he finally understands: she didn't make him spend his life alone. He did that himself. A story about heartbreak, the walls we build to survive it, and the painful realization that sometimes we hurt the people who try to bring us back. ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ [Intro] I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) I just got good at saying so (그저 괜찮다고 말하는 데 익숙해졌을 뿐.) [Instrumental] [Verse 1] You stood beside the kitchen sink (넌 부엌 싱크대 옆에 서 있었어.) Your keys were in your hand (손에는 열쇠를 쥔 채로.) You said my name so quietly (넌 내 이름을 너무도 조용히 불렀고.) I knew before you said it (무슨 말을 할지, 듣기도 전에 알았어.) I watched you put your coat on (난 네가 외투를 입는 모습을 바라봤어.) Like we had somewhere to go (마치 우리가 함께 어디라도 가려는 것처럼.) And when you asked if I'd be alright (그리고 네가 나에게 괜찮겠냐고 물었을 때.) I said, "Of course," and let you go (난 "그럼, 당연하지"라고 말하며 널 보내줬어.) [Pre-Chorus] I thought the worst would be the missing (네가 그리운 게 가장 힘들 줄 알았어.) The nights I'd reach for you (밤마다 무심코 네가 있던 자리를 더듬는 일이.) I didn't know that losing you (널 잃은 일이.) Would change the way I loved anyone new (그 후로 누군가를 사랑하는 내 모습까지 바꿔놓을 줄은 몰랐어.) [Chorus] I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) I just got good at saying so (그저 괜찮다고 말하는 데 익숙해졌을 뿐.) I learned to smile when people asked (사람들이 물으면 웃어 보이는 법을 배웠고.) And never let the answer show (진짜 대답은 끝내 드러내지 않았어.) I didn't stop loving you (널 사랑하는 마음을 멈춘 게 아니야.) I stopped letting anybody close (그 누구도 내 곁에 다가오지 못하게 한 거야.) The day you left, I shut myself away (네가 떠난 그날, 난 스스로 마음의 문을 닫았어.) And nobody ever knew (그리고 아무도 그걸 몰랐지.) I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) [Instrumental] [Verse 2] There was someone after you (네가 떠난 뒤, 내 곁에 다른 사람이 있었어.) She had a laugh that filled the room (그녀가 웃으면 온 방 안이 환해졌지.) She'd fall asleep against my chest (그녀는 내 가슴에 기대 잠들곤 했고.) And I'd lie awake till two (난 새벽 두 시까지 잠들지 못했어.) One night she asked me what was wrong (어느 날 밤, 그녀가 무슨 일이 있냐고 물었어.) I told her I was tired (난 그저 피곤하다고 했지.) She said, "I know you're here with me (그녀가 말했어. "당신이 내 곁에 있는 건 알아.) But where do you go inside?" (그런데 마음은 자꾸 어디로 가버리는 거야?") [Pre-Chorus 2] I couldn't find a thing to say (난 아무 말도 할 수 없었어.) She waited anyway (그래도 그녀는 기다려줬지.) And when she finally walked away (그러다 결국 그녀마저 떠나던 날.) I heard myself say, "Okay" (난 또다시 "그래"라고 말하고 있었어.) [Chorus] I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) I just got good at saying so (그저 괜찮다고 말하는 데 익숙해졌을 뿐.) I learned to smile when people asked (사람들이 물으면 웃어 보이는 법을 배웠고.) And never let the answer show (진짜 대답은 끝내 드러내지 않았어.) I didn't stop loving you (널 사랑하는 마음을 멈춘 게 아니야.) I stopped letting anybody close (그 누구도 내 곁에 다가오지 못하게 한 거야.) The day you left, I shut myself away (네가 떠난 그날, 난 스스로 마음의 문을 닫았어.) And nobody ever knew (그리고 아무도 그걸 몰랐지.) I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) [Instrumental] [Bridge] For years I told myself (난 몇 년 동안 스스로에게 말했어.) You were the reason I was cold (내가 이렇게 차가워진 건 너 때문이라고.) But you didn't ask me (하지만 넌 내게 그런 삶을.) To spend my life alone (평생 혼자 살아가라고 한 적 없었지.) You only said goodbye (넌 그저 작별을 고했을 뿐인데.) And I turned it into forever (난 그 이별을 영원한 고독으로 만들어버렸어.) I thought if I stopped needing love (사랑 따윈 필요 없다고 생각하면.) Nothing could hurt me ever (다시는 상처받을 일도 없을 줄 알았어.) But someone tried to love me (그런데 누군가 날 사랑하려 했고.) And I made her feel alone (난 그 사람마저 외롭게 만들었어.) I did to her (난 그녀에게.) What losing you had done to me (널 잃고 내가 겪었던 아픔을 그대로 안겨줬어.) [Instrumental] [Final Chorus 1] I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) I just got good at saying so (그저 괜찮다고 말하는 데 익숙해졌을 뿐.) I built a life around the hurt (난 그 상처를 중심으로 내 삶을 쌓아 올렸고.) And told myself I'd let it go (다 잊었다고 스스로를 속였어.) But every time somebody stayed (하지만 누군가 내 곁에 머물려고 할 때마다.) I found a way to make them leave (난 어떻게든 그 사람을 떠나게 만들었어.) I wasn't waiting for you to come back (네가 돌아오기를 기다린 게 아니었어.) I was afraid they'd do the same (그 사람도 너처럼 떠날까 봐 두려웠던 거야.) I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) [Final Chorus 2] I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) I just got good at saying so (그저 괜찮다고 말하는 데 익숙해졌을 뿐.) I wish I'd said I wasn't fine (괜찮지 않다고, 그때 솔직히 말할걸.) The night I watched you go (네가 떠나는 모습을 지켜보던 그 밤에.) And if I ever love again (그리고 언젠가 다시 사랑하게 된다면.) I won't make someone pay (그 사람에게 내 상처의 대가를 치르게 하진 않을 거야.) For all the things I couldn't say (내가 차마 하지 못했던 말들 때문에.) The day you walked away (네가 떠나던 그날의 아픔 때문에.) I was never fine alone (난 혼자서 괜찮았던 적이 없어.) [Instrumental] [Outro] You asked if I'd be alright (넌 내게 괜찮겠냐고 물었지.) I said, "Of course." (난 "당연하지"라고 대답했어.) I wasn't. (사실은… 전혀 괜찮지 않았어.) [End] ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ 🇯🇵 **日本語歌詞 — I WAS NEVER FINE ALONE** [Intro] 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない ただ「大丈夫」と言うのが上手くなっただけ [Verse 1] 君はキッチンの流し台のそばに立っていた 手には鍵を握りしめて あまりにも静かに僕の名前を呼んだから 言葉を聞く前から、もう分かっていた 君がコートを羽織るのを見つめていた まるで二人でどこかへ出かけるみたいに 「一人で大丈夫？」と君が聞いたとき 僕は「もちろん」と答えて、君を見送った [Pre-Chorus] 一番つらいのは、君を恋しく思うことだと思っていた 夜になると、君がいた場所に手を伸ばしてしまうこと 君を失ったことで その後の誰かの愛し方まで変わってしまうなんて、知らなかった [Chorus] 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない ただ「大丈夫」と言うのが上手くなっただけ 誰かに聞かれたら笑ってみせて 本当の気持ちは、決して見せなかった 君を愛さなくなったわけじゃない 誰も心に近づけなくなったんだ 君が去ったあの日、僕は心を閉ざした 誰にも気づかれないまま 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない [Verse 2] 君が去ったあと、僕を愛してくれた人がいた 彼女が笑うと、部屋中が明るくなった 僕の胸に寄り添って眠る彼女の隣で 僕は午前二時まで眠れずにいた ある夜、彼女が「どうしたの？」と聞いた 僕は「疲れているだけ」と答えた 彼女は言った 「ここにいてくれるのは分かる。でも、心はどこへ行ってしまうの？」 [Pre-Chorus 2] 僕は何も言えなかった それでも彼女は待ってくれた そして、とうとう彼女が去っていくとき 僕はまた「分かった」と口にしていた [Chorus] 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない ただ「大丈夫」と言うのが上手くなっただけ 誰かに聞かれたら笑ってみせて 本当の気持ちは、決して見せなかった 君を愛さなくなったわけじゃない 誰も心に近づけなくなったんだ 君が去ったあの日、僕は心を閉ざした 誰にも気づかれないまま 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない [Bridge] 何年ものあいだ、自分に言い聞かせていた こんなに冷たくなったのは君のせいだと でも君は、僕に 一生一人で生きてほしいなんて言わなかった 君はただ、さよならを告げただけ それを永遠の孤独に変えたのは僕だった 愛なんて必要ないと思えば もう二度と傷つかずに済むと思っていた それなのに、僕を愛そうとしてくれた人を 僕は孤独にしてしまった 君を失って僕が味わった痛みを 今度は僕が、彼女に与えてしまったんだ [Final Chorus 1] 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない ただ「大丈夫」と言うのが上手くなっただけ 傷を抱えたまま人生を築いて もう忘れたんだと、自分に言い聞かせていた でも誰かがそばにいようとするたび 僕はその人を遠ざけてしまった 君が戻るのを待っていたんじゃない その人も君と同じように去るのが怖かったんだ 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない [Final Chorus 2] 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない ただ「大丈夫」と言うのが上手くなっただけ 本当は大丈夫じゃないと、言えばよかった 君が去っていくのを見つめていた、あの夜に もしもう一度、誰かを愛せるなら 僕の傷の代償を、その人に背負わせたりしない 君が去ったあの日 言えなかった言葉のせいで、誰かを傷つけたりしない 一人でも平気だったことなんて、一度もない [Outro] 「一人で大丈夫？」と君は聞いた 僕は「もちろん」と答えた 本当は……大丈夫なんかじゃなかった [End]