Open Tab - Kira

[Intro] Thirty-two windows glowing blue Every single version of me looking back at you A blue-light shadow on a bedroom wall I hear them whispering, I hear them call [Verse 1] A half-read article on how to be free A cart full of clothes that don't belong to me An unsent email sitting in a draft A quiet room where I used to laugh I keep the tab running at the corner bar Charging up drinks under a fake red star Different profile pictures for different eyes Curating all my soft little white-colored lies You double-tap the image, you think you know my face While I’m drowning in the static of a digital space A hundred different stories I forgot to close Which one is real? Heaven only knows [Pre-Chorus] The notifications fade into the deep night air I’m sitting in the silence of a cold velvet chair Strip away the audience, turn off the glowing light Who is left standing in the dark tonight? [Chorus] I leave another open tab running in my mind A hundred little pieces that I left behind Charging up the bill for the things I never say Postponing all the quiet till another day An open window floating in the digital sea I keep them all running just to hide from me Can’t close the chapter, can’t pay the fee An open tab is all that’s left of me [Post-Chorus] Clicking on the screen, floating in the glow Where do all the unfinished versions go? Clicking on the screen, floating in the glow Where do all the unfinished versions go? [Verse 2] I owe a little debt to the girl I used to be She’s stuck in window three staring back at me Accumulating interest on emotional loans Hiding all my secrets inside broken phones Visibility is cheap, but the cost is high When everybody watches as you pass them by You see the glossy surface, you see the quiet grace I see a dozen strangers sharing one single face I keep the tabs open so I don't gotta choose Which version of myself I’m willing to lose An endless catalog of who I could become Fingers on the keyboard feeling cold and numb [Pre-Chorus] The notifications fade into the deep night air I’m sitting in the silence of a cold velvet chair Strip away the audience, turn off the glowing light Who is left standing in the dark tonight? [Chorus] I leave another open tab running in my mind A hundred little pieces that I left behind Charging up the bill for the things I never say Postponing all the quiet till another day An open window floating in the digital sea I keep them all running just to hide from me Can’t close the chapter, can’t pay the fee An open tab is all that’s left of me [Bridge] If I close them all down, what is left inside? Just an empty dark room where the shadows hide I keep the windows open cause I’m scared to see That beneath the static there is only me Choosing one face means letting others die So I leave them all running under a digital sky [Chorus] I leave another open tab running in my mind A hundred little pieces that I left behind Charging up the bill for the things I never say Postponing all the quiet till another day An open window floating in the digital sea I keep them all running just to hide from me Can’t close the chapter, can’t pay the fee An open tab is all that’s left of me [Outro] Glass bottle waiting on a dark glass stand Cold red liquid slipping from my hand Leave the tabs running while the screen turns black Sugar on my tongue, no turning back