[R.E.D,] Got so used to carrying worlds upon my back I never saw the empty spaces in the cracks Spent years chasing echoes down a winding road Only to arrive where I was meant to go I kept waiting on a sign, waiting on the rain Thinking time would somehow wash away the pain But the river kept on running, never slowed for me So I learned to wear a smile like a shield I couldn't see People see the red hood and think they know my name They don't know the midnight hours wrestling the flame All the silent conversations, all the doubts I fed All the wars that left no scars except inside my head I remember standing still while the seasons slipped away Trying to outrun yesterday and build a better day Every mile felt heavier, every turn unsure Still I kept my feet moving, and that became the cure Now I spend less time asking what this life has done More time watching golden light fade beneath the sun Some scars stay forever, and I'm learning that's alright They're the map that brought me safely through the longest nights I've lost people to the distance, lost belief and lost my way Buried dreams beneath the weight of things I couldn't say But every closing doorway left a lesson in the dark Even when I couldn't see it carving out its mark I don't hold the answers, and I probably never will There's a thousand restless mountains waiting past the hill But I'm not the same shadow that first walked this road alone And that's enough to know how much I've truly grown So when tomorrow finds me, I'll meet it where I stand One more step, one more breath, one day at a time's command No revelation waiting, no miracle in sight Just doing my best to keep moving toward the light [Soul L33k] Every day's a war that nobody can see (yeah...) Smiling in the crowd while it's killing me (killing me...) Carrying these scars like they're part of my skin Trying to let go, but they pull me back in (back in...) Late-night thoughts got me staring at the ceiling Asking myself if this emptiness is healing (healing...) Running from the pain but it's matching every pace Like a shadow in the dark that I can never erase (erase...) Hands shaking, heart racing, losing control Searching through the wreckage trying to find my soul If tomorrow comes, maybe I'll find a way Till then I'm just surviving through another day Watching all the people as they pass me by Wondering if they can see the hurt behind my eyes Everybody's fighting battles they don't ever show So I keep my secrets buried where nobody knows Some nights I feel like I'm drowning in the deep Wide awake at three while the whole world sleeps Trying to make peace with the ghosts in my head Having conversations with the words I never said The weight on my chest feels heavier each year Still I keep moving, though I'm driven by fear Holding onto hope with a weakening grip Like a candle in a storm on a sinking ship Maybe there's a reason that I'm still standing here Maybe every heartbreak taught me how to persevere Maybe all this pain becomes a story someday And the darkness that I'm in won't always have to stay So I'll take one more step, even if it's slow Even when the road's the only thing I know And if I lose myself somewhere along the way I'll keep chasing the light through another day
