[Verse 1 | clean female vocal, tense and conversational] I made every invite into group plans Sat two seats over when your side was free Left first, kept my coat on at the table Always had somewhere else to be Tonight I came alone and stayed put Didn't make a joke when you looked at me You should know what you are to me You should know [Pre-Chorus | restrained clean vocal with answering gang vocals] I'm not confused (she's not confused) I'm not afraid (she ain't afraid) I just been careful And careful is over [Chorus | soaring clean-and-scream female vocal] This is me not being cool about it Not playing it down Not keeping it small You matter to me More than I've been letting on More than I've been letting on [Verse 2 | aggressive female rap, sharply syncopated, no sung melody] If this lands wrong, I still walk in Friday Same room, same friends, same blown-out PA No fake little laugh, no convenient escape I can look you in the face, let the whole truth stay You've been saving me a seat, month after month I kept crossing the room like the answer was dust Took the chair across, kept pretending it was enough But the space beside you is calling my bluff No more shrug, no more dodge, no more polished routine No more hiding what I mean behind a practiced scene You can hear it in the pause, you can see it when I speak That empty chair beside you isn't empty to me [Pre-Chorus | rising clean vocal with harsh backing responses] I'm not confused (she's not confused) I'm not afraid (she ain't afraid) I just been careful And careful is over [Chorus | full clean-and-scream female vocal] This is me not being cool about it Not playing it down Not keeping it small You matter to me More than I've been letting on More than I've been letting on [Bridge | sparse clean vocal, then screamed pickup] I had the shrug ready You said, “Say it” I kept my shoulders still And did [Final Chorus | massive anthemic clean vocal with gang shouts] This is me not being cool about it Not playing it down Not keeping it small You matter to me More than I've been letting on And now you know And now you know
