Yeah Look I used to think I was hard to explain Now I think I was just hearing myself early Pain in my head before I knew what pain was Little kid quiet while the dark room caved up Same time, same place, same kind of thunder Mama at the doorway tryna pray me from under Then the words got stuck like a door with a chain on it Whole thought clear, but my throat put rain on it Phone ring, heart jump, sentence in a headlock Waiting on my body just to give me the next stop They called me quiet, I was fighting with the timing Mind ran ahead, mouth stayed behind it Pretty face, big school, everybody saw shine Whole time inside, I was losing daylight Never chased attention, still got found by it Never played mysterious, I was bound by it Watching every room like the walls had language Learning how to smile through a private anguish Rare air, bad signal Clear mind, cracked window They saw shine, I felt little Whole life stuck in the middle Rare air, bad signal Fast thoughts, slow tempo Mouth froze, soul scribbled I was never that simple One in the head with the pain that clocks in One in the mind where the numbers start talking One in the mouth where the words move wrong That’s a lonely kind of math when it follows you long I ain’t saying I was chosen I ain’t saying I’m divine I’m just saying when you’re different You start searching for the sign Maybe all those broken pieces Had a pattern underneath Maybe God ain’t make a mistake Maybe pain just made me deep Maybe beauty made them miss it Maybe silence made a myth Maybe I was never distant I just couldn’t make words lift Good looks don’t mean peace High thoughts don’t mean ease Tryna speak with a locked jaw Tryna breathe through a brain freeze Rare air, bad signal Clear mind, cracked window They saw shine, I felt little Whole life stuck in the middle Rare air, bad signal Fast thoughts, slow tempo Mouth froze, soul scribbled I was never that simple I don’t want pity I just want the math understood Not every gifted kid was gifted Some of us just bled good Some of us looked calm Cause the storm stayed private Some of us got quiet Cause the mouth got violent Some of us learned rooms Before we learned rest Some of us got praised While we felt less Now I’m grown, still connecting dots slow San Anto alien with the lights down low Seed of a seed, tryna see where the roots go Turn a bad signal into something they could quote though I don’t think the pain made me smarter I think pain made me listen I don’t think the stutter made me deeper It just made every word expensive So when I speak now Understand what it cost me Years with the thought clear While the world talked softly I was never mysterious I was careful with the pressure I was never too cool I was measured And if the voice shake Let it shake, that’s proof That the signal still came through And the message still truth **[Final Hook]** Rare air, bad signal Clear mind, cracked window They saw shine, I felt little Whole life stuck in the middle Rare air, bad signal Fast thoughts, slow tempo Mouth froze, soul scribbled I was never that simple Yeah I used to think I was broken Now I think I was built with static And still found a way to transmit
