7. THE LINE'S BEEN BUSY [INTRO] I can't remember the last time something really made me smile. Not fake. Not forced. Not for a little while. Just nothing. [VERSE 1] Anhedonia got me watching everything through empty eyes. Music plays, but I don't feel it. Beautiful things just pass me by. Things I used to fucking love don't hit the way they did. I keep searching for that feeling, but there's nothing where it lived. People tell me it'll get better. I've heard that shit before. But every day I wake up and the pain is way worse then before. I don't want this anymore. Nothing feels good. Nothing feels right. Just this fucking weight dragging through another night. [HOOK] I've been calling joy, but the line's been busy. Calling pleasure, but the line's been busy. I've been waiting way too long for something to come through. Somebody tell that fucking line I'm still trying to get through. Let it ring. Let it ring. Please let it ring again. I've been listening to dead silence for way too fucking long. [VERSE 2] I can't find the pleasure, but I can fucking feel the pain. It crawls beneath my skin and comes screaming back again. Every morning feels endless. Every night refuses to end. I'm begging for one moment where this suffering fucking bends. I keep waiting for the feeling. I keep waiting for the change. But the clock keeps moving forward while I'm trapped inside the same pain. It's not sadness anymore. It's deeper than I can explain. It's wanting just one second where I don't feel this fucking pain. I've been standing by the phone, begging something to come through. Joy. Pleasure. Anything. Just make this fucking pain stop being the only thing I feel. [BRIDGE] Hello? Anybody? I'm still here. I've been calling. I've been waiting. The line's been busy for too fucking long. [FINAL HOOK] I've been calling joy, but the line's been busy. Calling pleasure, but the line's been busy. I don't need the whole world to suddenly become brand new. Just let one fucking feeling finally make it through. Let it ring. Let it ring. Let it ring again. I've been listening to dead silence while the pain keeps fucking ringing. [OUTRO] I'm still holding the phone. Still waiting. Still hoping... that one day, something finally answers.
