I’m Squandering My Time

[INTRO — Bare / Intimate / Free Tempo] I’m up early [VERSE 1 — Conversational / Relaxed / Slightly Uneven Cadence] Lately I’m wondering if things will work out And I keep squandering my time It’s early morning I’m two cigarettes in Haven’t had my coffee yet Day’s just forming Guess I’m fine [VERSE 2 — Reflective / Conversational / Gentle Rhythmic Flow] Thought it was fun being online and writing lyrics But I get self conscious about letting things go Or I’m wasting time Guess I love forming things out of nothing, just ideas I paint my canvas when it’s bare I write my songs when it sparks [PRE-CHORUS — Slightly Building / More Focused Cadence] But really the better avenue is raw, unfiltered and handmade But I get more fun, sadly when most of the work is done for me [CHORUS — Open / Earnest / More Melodic] Brushing on the last dab of paint Editing the last line of song Which is better? Why can’t it go together? I just wanna be free Make room for me [VERSE 3 — Pull Back / Vulnerable / Conversational] Cause I’m not sure how long I’ll be here What projects I’ll finish What impact I’ll have How will I get by when I’m alone? It’s like a decision while being on a collision course [BRIDGE — Increasing Tension / Vulnerable / Slightly Unsettled] I’m desperate for things to work out And I keep making selfish choices So I’m not sure they will I have this apprehension and fear they won’t [FINAL CHORUS — Emotional / Open / Gradually Intensifying] But I’ll take it as it comes Whatever life gives me I’ll take it as it comes I’ll face the consequences for being selfish Doesn’t mean I don’t try But I’m just weak Desperate for things to work out [OUTRO — Quiet / Reflective] I’m up early