I'm Addicted To You

ugh… why’d you leave me on read again? I’m not waiting or anything! Okay maybe I am—just shut up! One! Two! Three! Go! I’ve tried caffeine, I’ve tried tea Nothing hits like when you text me Every buzz lights up my screen— My brain goes “ding!”—like dopamine. Stop it! Stop it! My heart’s not a lab! You’re just some idiot I kinda had! Okay fine maybe—just a tad… (Wait—no! Delete that snap!) Why do I blush when I say your name?! Why can’t my pulse just act the same?! You’re not that cute—okay, maybe you are— A little bit—don’t look that far!! I’m addicted to you, b-baka! Every “hi” hits harder than vodka! My head’s spinning, I can’t focus— Heart on fire, you don’t even notice! I’m addicted to you, oh no~ My pride says stop, but my brain says go! I said I’d quit, I really tried— But you’re my favorite alibi~ I-I don’t need you or anything… maybe I’m addicted to you Ugh, whatever! I’ve tried silence, I’ve tried sleep, Still you crawl inside my dreams. I say “I’m fine!”—I mean, mostly fine— You’re just rent-free inside my mind! I deleted your name, then re-typed it again, You’re like caffeine wrapped in sin! If love’s a drug, you win—I give in! (but I’ll never tell you that, not ever!) Every heartbeat feels like proof This isn’t love, just residue! I’m perfectly normal, perfectly sane— Then why’s your name trapped in my brain?! I’m addicted to you, b-baka! Can’t detox this melodrama! Every smile’s a brand new high Every “bye” just makes me try! I’m addicted to you, oh please~ Give me one more dopamine tease! My logic’s gone, my brain’s denied— Guess I’ll overdose on “why?” I’m addicted to you I guess Oh why Why why why why why I said why! I said I’d block you… three times (one two three) But your name glows like a neon sign If I delete you, then what’s left? Just… me and regret, I guess… Ugh! No! Not regret! That’s lame! You’re lame! Everything’s lame! I—I hate how you make me feel the same… Baka… Baka… Baka… I’m addicted to you, b-baka! Even cold texts feel like lava! You’re the spark, my faulty wire— You light me up, then start a fire! I’m addicted to you, oh dear~ Come closer—wait, not that near! I said I’d quit, but guess I lied— You’re my poison and my pride! My addiction is you I'm addicted to you My addiction is you It’s not like I like you or anything… I just… can’t stop thinking about you Hmph I’m addicted to you Oh I’m addicted I’m addicted to you, baka...