I never missed a deadline Never let one thing fall So nobody thinks to wonder What it takes to juggle it all I make the meeting, crack the joke Remember everyone’s name I learned how to keep the wheels in line While something underneath me changed Maybe I'm too good at saying “I’m fine” Maybe you got used to buying that line Is it ’cause I never fall apart You never think to look beneath? You don’t look depressed Yeah, I hear it all the time Like misery needs evidence Like pain should wear a sign I get up, I get dressed I know how to play the part You think I don’t look depressed? You should see me in the dark The bills get paid, the work gets done I never miss a call I’m the one they lean on when They feel like they might fall Everybody says I handle pressure Like I was somehow built for this Nobody sees me in the driveway Trying to make myself go in You see the life I built around me You see everything I’ve earned But every good thing in my life Became another reason I shouldn’t hurt You don’t look depressed I hear it all the time Like misery needs evidence Like pain should wear a sign I get up, I get dressed I know how to play the part You think I don’t look depressed? You should see me in the dark What do I have to be sad about? A home, a job, people who care I know exactly how it looks From where you’re standing over there And that’s the part that makes it worse I know how lucky I should feel So I learned to hate myself For hurting when my life looks ideal I still laugh I still work I still show up every day I still ask how everybody’s doing So nobody looks my way You don’t look depressed No, I learned to hide it well You call it strength because I function I call it a living hell I get up, I get dressed I know how to play the part You think I don’t look depressed? You’re just not there when I fall apart You don’t look depressed Maybe that’s the point I got so good at holding everything Nobody heard the noise
