--------------------------------------------------------- When my daughter was born, a deep anxiety I had always held became exponentially worse and I couldn't handle it. I was too scared to speak to anyone about it and became reliant on alcohol to drown it out. It almost destroyed my life. This remake of the track was a happy accident, I left the lyrics in while messing with another instrumental...but it just feels right. --------------------------------------------------------- Thanks for listening and stopping by <3 © 2026 Procrastopia (Dezzi) (One, Two, Three, Four) You’re all just starting, I’m already there, I’m stuck in this state, (going nowhere) To stop, to have it all gone Being just me, would feel so wrong (Can’t keep this up) I’ve really gotta cut this out, It’s killing me, without a doubt The thing is, all my problems just melt away As I cruise on through the day Don’t wanna confront, that I'm spread so thin Because, before long, the regret sets in I don't know how, to turn it around, Now I’m back on the ground, A friend's, holding my hair I could be lying anywhere Don't wanna be in this state, But is this just my fate, It’s like I just keep cruising, Terrified of what I’m losing I don't know how, to turn it around, Now I’m back on the ground, A friend's, holding my hair I could be lying anywhere Lights are on, but I’m not home Talking to me, but I’m alone It’s addictive being in a perpetual daze I guess, I’m stuck in my ways I don't know how, to turn it around, Now I’m back on the ground, A friend's, holding my hair I could be lying anywhere (I’m lucky they still care) Can I remember, It’s ok to feel, That this is life, This is what’s real, To which part of me, Do I make this deal (Do I make this deal) (Do I make this deal) I’m on my back, swearing it won’t happen again But its the only way, to mask the pain How much damage, have I already done Whats the price im gonna pay? Can I even be, what I want to be? Would people even like, The actual, Real, True, Me? © 2026 Procrastopia (Dezzi)
