新しく作ったアリシアの曲をプレイリストにまとめていきます。 https://suno.com/playlist/8d8e7327-a1ad-4f50-a385-d1e563faca06 この出来事を想起出来たことが…自己年表の再作成をしてもう一度自分としっかり向き合う決意をしたキッカケでした。 あなたの苦悩も後悔も…全てをひっくるめて私は… The memory of this event coming back to me was what led me to recreate the timeline of my life and make the decision to truly face myself once again. Your anguish, your regrets... embracing all of them, I... 日本語歌詞 昨日まで見えていた空は もう私を照らさない 名前さえ失くしたように 今日も影を引きずっている 夜がすべてを奪っていった 明日なんてもういらない 誰にも届かない涙だけが 頬を伝って落ちてゆく 小さな鼓動が 私を責めるようで 愛せるはずもないと 何度も目を閉じた 気が付いたら水辺にいた 水面だけが静かで… 私１人立ち尽くしていた 哀しみで沈んだ心と共に このまま沈めば きっと…楽に… 入ろうとした瞬間 お腹に手を触れる そこにいる命を感じて 呆然と立ち尽くす いつの間にか泣いていた お腹を抱きしめたまま 小さな命が 声もないままで 「生きたい」と 私へ触れてきた 何も知らずに ただ……生きようとしていた それがわかってしまったから 見捨てられない そう思った 許したわけじゃない 前を向けたわけでもない それでも… あなたを 産もう そう決めたのは 誰でもない 私だった The sky I could see until yesterday no longer shines upon me. As though I had even lost my name, I drag my shadow behind me today. The night took everything away. I don't need tomorrow anymore. Only tears that will never reach anyone keep falling down my cheeks. The tiny life within me felt as though it were blaming me. I closed my eyes again and again, thinking I could never love you. Before I knew it, I was standing by the water. Only the surface was still... I stood there all alone. If I could sink beneath it along with this heart drowned in sorrow, maybe... I could finally be at peace... Just as I was about to step into the water, I placed a hand upon my belly. I felt the life that was there and simply stood there, stunned. Before I knew it, I was crying, still holding my belly close. That tiny life, without making a sound, reached out to me as if to say, "I want to live." Knowing nothing at all, you were simply... trying to live. And once I realized that... I couldn't abandon you. That was what I felt. It didn't mean I had forgiven anything. It didn't mean I was ready to move forward. And yet... I will give birth to you. The one who made that choice was no one else. It was me.
