Why did you leave

She is just a space to hold because the reality of all it, is that I truly miss Jase so much! It’s like I lost my reflection the day he left! I see a crow everyday and know it’s him! I never admitted it to anyone, but I was starting to fall in love with him, but we both were in love with someone else at the time, so it stayed at just a comfortable, but undeniable bond that I couldn’t even explain! Jase was my one time that I broke down my walls and he cherished my vulnerability! He triggered my ultimate abandonment issues and he’s never coming back and that hurts so much! Hearing that it was suicide, made me cry because I didn’t even know he was that depressed to leave in such a way that makes us wonder why and why couldn’t I help him! I fuckin miss him so much! Ouch this hurts! Why did he leave…