[Intro] Going home again Going home again... [Verse 1] Hired an agent, gave him my list Sweaty palmed and clenched my fist Told him the restaurant, told him the rules Don't make me look like the desperate fool (I looked like the desperate fool) Held my breath when he made the call Braced myself against the wall Line connected, we were on But I already knew that something'd go wrong (something went wrong) [Pre-Chorus] Trust the process, play it cool Wait a little longer like they taught you in school First one showed and I exhaled But I could feel the next one Already bailed (I manifested that) [Chorus] Standing at the door again Write it down and pretend that it's fine One empty chair and the whole night breaks Winning never lands the way they promised it would Called it a triumph, swallowed the loss Every yes has a hidden cost Partial disaster, coat still on Going home again And I'm going home again [Verse 2] The waiting was its own kind of ache Silence has a way of keeping you awake Told myself the patience made me smart (it did not make me smart) Mostly just gave doubt a place to start Someone ghosted, someone gone Someone showed but something felt wrong Cold little note, a name crossed out Log it and move on What's next, what's next (there is no next, I checked) [Pre-Chorus] Almost convinced myself it'd be fine Had a whole speech ready, memorized every line They showed up and I exhaled Then I opened my mouth And immediately bailed (on myself. I bailed on myself) [Chorus] Standing at the door again Write it down and pretend that it's fine One empty chair and the whole night breaks Winning never lands the way they promised it would Called it a triumph, swallowed the loss Every yes has a hidden cost Partial disaster, coat still on Going home again And I'm going home again [Bridge] I kept the records, needed the control But every loss just made the ledger cold One missing name out of everyone Should feel like winning Never does Never does (I re-read the ledger three times to make sure) (it still said partial disaster) (I added a note that said "expected") [Final Chorus] Standing at the door again Coat still on, pretending it's fine Journal open, ink still wet Tonight's a night I'd rather just forget Partial disaster, that's what it reads One empty chair is all it needs Going home again And I'm going home again [Outro] I'll try again tomorrow I always do I always do I always do... (I already made a new list) (it's longer this time) (obviously)
