[Intro - spoken, low] You are now listening to the best of our culture… it's the Book Bitch. [Verse 1] You told me sex with me is amazing, then you told me you feel nothing Sat there staring at my phone like the words owed me something You ain't cold, you ain't cruel, you just somewhere I can't reach And I been answering "I'm good" like a sermon I don't preach You said a stranger's hands might wake up what he put to sleep Said it soft, said it honest, while my stomach hit my knees I typed "nice," I typed "whatever," that was me just buying time 'Cause the truth was in my throat and it was heavier than pride [Pre-Chorus] I ain't judging you, I swear it on the nights we almost drowned I just know if I say yes to this, there won't be much of me left around [Chorus] I want you better, I want you free Want your laugh back in this kitchen, want your head back on my chest asleep But I can't love you at the cost of me I don't wanna go numb myself hoping you get better, baby If you gotta go find your spark in somebody else's arms I'd walk away with love in my heart before I stay and turn to harm That ain't a threat, that's a boundary with your name kept safe inside it I can hold you through the healing, I just can't disappear inside it [Verse 2] He already took enough, I refuse to let him take the rest Took the easy out our mornings, took the peace up out your chest You think different hands might prove that you can still feel something real I think numb is what he left you, and numb ain't yours to heal You told me once they used you like your feelings never mattered Baby, you matter to me, that's the whole thing in this pattern So if I go quiet, understand it's just the ache with nowhere to land I'm still the man who fights for us, I just can't fight with empty hands [Bridge - stripped down, almost spoken] I can't fix what he did Can't fix you, can't fix us, can't rewind what he slid into our story All I got is staying honest when the honest almost kills me 'Cause the short replies and swallowing it whole That's the slow way I been dying and you didn't even know [Final Chorus] I want you better, I want you free Want your smile back for its own sake, even if it ain't with me But I can't love you at the cost of me I don't wanna go numb myself hoping you get better, baby If you gotta go find your spark in somebody else's arms I'd walk away with love in my heart before I stay and turn to harm Will it break me? Yeah, of course it will, every day for a while But I'd rather break clean than rot quiet with a smile [Outro - spoken, low] You are now listening to the best of our culture… it's the Book Bitch.
