Stanford, Stanford

# Stanford, Stanford *(original lyrics, written to the meter and feel of "Jolene")* **Verse 1** Stanford, Stanford, Stanford, Stanford I was dying, you stood by You looked at rashes on my skin And called them nothing, called me a liar My muscles burning, weak, and wasting Nerves on fire, dismissed, ignored You wrote it off as anxious woman Never checked, just shut the door **Chorus** Stanford, Stanford, Stanford, Stanford You had every chance to try I came to you with failing organs You just smiled and called it lies **Verse 2** The clots were moving through my lungs My heart was straining, pushed too far My liver drowning, shocked and swollen Still you called me drug-seeker The pancreas you poisoned slowly Steroids stacked on steroids still An infection rotting in the shadows While you billed me, billed me still **Chorus** Stanford, Stanford, Stanford, Stanford I was drowning, you walked by Hepatitis was your answer When my heart and lungs were dying **Verse 3** Two biopsies cut through liver tissue Hunting for a lie you'd planted Celiac artery, closing, choking Vessels crushed, and no one wanted To see the nutcracker in my kidney Or the artery pinched so tight You rewrote what I had told you Buried truth to win your fight **Hook** It's never porphyria, ever, ever Not once, not ever, hear me now It was SFN and dermatomyositis Screaming loud, you don't know how Compartment syndrome closing tighter Pressure building, nowhere to go You ignored the zebra, rare and distant While the answer sat right below **Bridge** Enteritis, left to fester Appendix burst while you looked away CSF leaking out for years While you swore that I'd be okay ST and T waves, screaming at you Ejection fraction crashing fast It was all there on the paper Still you let the moment pass **Verse 4** My sugar crashed, I hit the floor Blacked out cold in your own halls You called it psychiatric, nerves Said eat small meals, ignored it all A coma waiting in my bloodstream While you wrote me off as weak You had a scan, you had a number Still you wouldn't let me speak **Verse 5** I'm not asking you to love me Just to look me in the eye To read the numbers on the screen Instead of deciding I would lie You built a story out of nothing Judged me before I said a word I was never the one faking I was just the one unheard **Final Chorus** Stanford, Stanford, Stanford, Stanford You don't get to watch me die Doctors, hear this clearly I survived what you denied