[Verse 1] Twenty-one and the sky was a flatline No color in the air, no static in my spine. I was looking for a ghost just to feel the haunt Searching for a needle in a bed of "don’t." I INVITED THE CHAOS IN! I OPENED EVERY WINDOW JUST TO FEEL THE WIND! I treated my heart like a rented room And let the wreckage bloom. [Pre-Chorus] I needed a reason to bleed! Anything to stop the boredom, anything to feed the greed! I was trading my peace for a moment of heat Worshipping the fire just to feel the beat. [Chorus] I was addicted to the crash, addicted to the burn Running from a lesson I didn't want to learn. I’d set the world on fire just to see the glow How'd I get so high just to feel this low? I was traumatizing my own soul! Just to feel like I was whole. [Verse 2] CHECK THE ARCHIVES! Every bridge I burned was a firework show! I didn't have a map, I didn't have a place to go! So I manufactured lightning, I manufactured storms I found a certain comfort in the twisted and deformed! I was a tourist in my own tragedy Crafting a catastrophe. [Bridge] The rush is a liar. The high is a thief. I spent five years building a mountain of grief... JUST TO HAVE SOMETHING TO CLIMB! JUST TO FEEL THE PASSAGE OF TIME! WAKE UP! [Breakdown] I WAS MY OWN COLLISION! I WAS MY OWN RESTRAINT! STRIPPING THE CANVAS! SMEARING THE PAINT! (Whoa, I was fading...) I DIDN'T NEED AN ENEMY, I WAS THE ONE IN CONTROL! I WAS TRAUMATIZING MY OWN SOUL! [Chorus] I was addicted to the crash, addicted to the burn Running from a lesson I didn't want to learn. I’d set the world on fire just to see the glow How'd I get so high just to feel this low? [Outro] The smoke is clearing now... I don't need the rush to stay alive. I'm learning how to thrive... I SURVIVED MYSELF!
