I wake up and the room feels gold, By dinner, everything feels cold. I can turn a whisper into war, Then wonder what I’m crying for. I love like I’ve got nothing to lose, Then get scared and don’t know what to choose. My heart runs faster than my head, I say “I’m okay” when I’m seeing red. CHORUS I’m black, I’m white, I’m fire, I’m ice, I’m heaven for a minute, Then I’m lost in the night. I’m too high, too low, Too fast, too slow, Tell me how to feel less When I only know too much. I make forever out of one good night, Then one bad thought ruins everything right. I’m building castles in the clouds, Then watching them come crashing down. I wish I could just feel something small, Not every emotion, all at once, all. Maybe gray isn’t something to fear, Maybe I can let the middle come near. CHORUS I’m black, I’m white, I’m fire, I’m ice, I’m heaven for a minute, Then I’m lost in the night. I’m too high, too low, Too fast, too slow, Tell me how to feel less When I only know too much. And maybe I’m not made to choose Between the girl I am and the girl I lose. Maybe every shade belongs to me, Even the ones I never wanted to see. FINAL CHORUS I’m black, I’m white, Still learning the lines, Still trying to find A place between the highs. I’m too high, too low, But I’m learning to know— I don’t have to be less Just because I feel too much.
