Intro (quiet piano / ambient guitar) Yeah I knocked upon your door the other day You opened it just to say “Fuck you” to my face If I’m honest, I’m still in misery So it’s fuck you when you speak to me You left me in my misery And that’s the one thing Still not okay But you’re my mother So I’ll forgive you anyway ⸻ Verse 1 Your dismissiveness just isn’t okay You act like my feelings were meant to hurt you anyway You may have been there every time I looked back But where were you when my anxiety attacked? It was clawing at me And you didn’t have my back I feel like shit for writing you today Cause I’m your kid and I’ll forgive But it’s not like you’ll really listen anyway ⸻ Chorus (bigger instrumental) Oh Mother’s dearest doesn’t want to hear it Mother’s dearest knows what to say Mother’s dearest isn’t okay Oh Mother’s dearest turns and walks away ⸻ Verse 2 You acted like you saw me But I see right through that game And I never liked the way You always liked to play “What is it? I don’t remember.” That’s what you’re gonna say Cause you know that something happened But don’t want any of the blame But it sucks for you You were the adult Who let me feel all this pain I was alone emotionally While my father drowned me With all his pain ⸻ Chorus Oh Mother’s dearest doesn’t want to hear it Mother’s dearest knows what to say Mother’s dearest isn’t okay Oh Mother’s dearest turns and walks away ⸻ Bridge (emotional peak) (instrumentals drop quiet) You were lost inside your head Crying in your bed But you never cared for mine You left me drowning in my head The silence was so loud You could hear it from your bed Some nights I wished I was dead You’ll never understand my feelings Unless you were trapped inside my head ⸻ Final Chorus (big emotional release) Oh Mother’s dearest isn’t sweet Mother’s dearest just isn’t me Mother’s dearest pushed me away Mother’s dearest turned away Oh Mother’s dearest couldn’t stay ⸻ Outro (instrument slowly fades) So this is my goodbye My childhood’s just a mystery A machine that’s unknown to me All I am and all I’ve said Are just my feelings You can feel them Or leave them But I held back in this song Cause you’re toxic And I don’t wanna be wrong So I’m leaving that lonely place Who needs your love anyway
