Dinner table, 6:30 Kids are talking over plates You’re halfway through a story I’m still trying to relate I’m looking right at you speaking but hearing you through water trying to break the surface but I can’t tell which way is up I’m right here in the middle of it How can I be so far away? I’m not alone, but I’m not known There’s a distance I can’t explain I can fill the silence easy But I'm just taking up space There’s a wall I never show No one sees it, but it stays I’m surrounded by the people I love Still a million miles away I’m the first to crack a joke So no one asks me anything Sometimes I laugh the loudest Just to feel like I fit in I can keep a whole room going Make it look like I belong But the second it goes quiet I remember something’s wrong If I stopped and told the truth I don’t know what I’d say I’m not alone, but I’m not known There’s a distance I can’t explain I can fill the silence easy But I'm just taking up space There’s a wall I never show No one sees it, but it stays I’m surrounded by the people I love Still a million miles away It’s not them, it’s something in me I keep locked behind my teeth I don’t know how to let it out Or was there ever anything beneath? If you asked me what I’m missing I’d just freeze and look away I’ve been speaking fluent “I’m okay” For so long I believe it when I say it I’m right here I’m right here Why does it feel like I’m not I’m not alone, but I’m not known There’s a distance I can’t outrun I can stand inside a full room Still feel like I’m the only one There’s a wall I never show No one sees it, but it stays I’m surrounded by the life I built Still a million miles away When you look at me what do you see Will I ever find my way back Is there anything left to say or What if empty's all I am
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