It starts inside the quiet where I overthink the blame Replaying every second till it all sounds the same I lock it in my chest and I pretend I'm in control While something underneath is eating through the whole I built a way to shut it out, a habit I can't break Wide awake and suffocating in the space you used to take I try to tear it out, I try to make it stop Make it stop, make it stop Pushing everything down until I reach the drop I don't know how to heal what I refuse to feel So I bleed it out inside my head Holding on to everything we never said You're gone and I'm still fighting with the weight of who I am Caught inside a cycle that I never understand I'm drowning in the numb Look at what I've become Another round of tearing down the things I tried to keep Dragging all the damage into everything I speak Every single promise turns to static in my mind Searching for a version of myself I left behind I talk myself in circles till my voice begins to crack Knowing that there's nothing left to bring the feeling back I try to tear it out, I try to make it stop Make it stop, make it stop Pushing everything down until I reach the drop I don't know how to heal what I refuse to feel So I bleed it out inside my head Holding on to everything we never said You're gone and I'm still fighting with the weight of who I am Caught inside a cycle that I never understand I'm drowning in the numb Look at what I've become I shut it down, I lock it in Right back where it all begins GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD! I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT I FEEL NOTHING AT ALL! WATCHING EVERYTHING FALL! I CAN'T TAKE IT BACK! So I bleed it out inside my head Inside my head! Holding on to everything we never said Caught inside a cycle that I never understand I'm drowning in the numb Look at what I've become Drowning in the numb Look at what I've become
