Yeah Lately it’s heavy don’t know if I’m steady Mind on a loop like the past won’t let me Every song I write feel more like a letter But I’m scared if I heal then I’ll lose what tethered I guess I’m feelin low again Like nothin matters in the end Like I’ll never love what I loved again And the cycle just begins just begins Look I been fightin shadows in a crowded room Smile on my face but inside it’s a tomb People say time heals but my clock’s been cruel Tickin every second like a judge in the school These thoughts ain’t guests they squatters in my head Payin rent in regret keep me chained to my bed And I try to confess but the words turn to lead So I bury the truth where the silence is fed And I don’t want pity I don’t want fame I just want freedom from the weight and the shame But the voice in my chest keep callin my name Sayin you’ll never change you’ll never change I guess I’m feelin low again Like nothin matters in the end Like I’ll never love what I loved again And the cycle just begins just begins People ask me why I always write so bleak Cause the pen’s the only place my demons let me speak Life gave me wounds but they cut so deep That the scars turn to maps I can’t help but read I’m tryna find hope but it hides in the dark Like a match in the storm like a prayer with no spark Every day’s a battle but the war leaves a mark On a heart that’s convinced it’s too broken to start So I wrestle with the silence drown in the sound Of a mind that reminds me I’m stuck to the ground But I’ll bleed on the beat 'til the walls fall down Cause this pain is my weapon my curse and my crown I guess I’m feelin low again Like nothin matters in the end Like I’ll never love what I loved again And the cycle just begins just begins I guess I’m feelin low again Like nothin matters in the end Like I’ll never love what I loved again But at least I got this pen got this pen
