Lyrics by @sakisongs or her selfmade Character Takumi Ikezawa __________________________________ Saki shares the same fears like Takumi. And this is where it went. Somehow I can't believe in this AFTERLIFE... and I wanna live so hard. And so is Takumi. This song was much and hard work, not even the vibe. This went out smooth, iut was the Lyrics where most of the power went... so please give me feedback, if it was worth it 🙌 ___________________________________ I look at my hands and they look like a stranger's bones. Mama said I breathe too fast, like I'm running out of air to borrow. The mirror isn't a face anymore, it’s just a clock ticking down in my eyes. I spend half my day bargaining with the dark, begging for one more minute of light. I act tough so nobody asks if I'm terrified, but I watch my own pulse and I panic. Because I’ve seen better men than me just turn into quiet, heavy meat. If there’s an after, does it know my name, or does it just wash me clean until I'm blank? Tell me, is it just nothing there? No cold, no bright, just an empty room? Does my mind erase like chalk on a board the second my chest stops moving? I’ve been hiding from the fact that I am fragile. If I stop, don't let me vanish. Please, don't let me vanish. Forget the coffin, forget the rain, I’m not scared of the pain of dying. I’m scared of losing my mind. I’m scared of becoming nobody. Don’t tell me it’s peaceful to go, I want to keep my anger, my blood, my flaws. If I cross that line, don't let them scrub me away. My father gave me his anger, and I used it to block out the silence. But anger doesn’t stop the rot, it just makes you loud while you decay. I used to think being tough was a shield, now I see it’s just a heavier weight to carry into the dirt. I’ve watched people go stiff in hospital beds, mouths open, shouting absolute nothing. The loudest ones always end up just as quiet. So I keep staring at the floorboards, wondering how deep the drop actually is, and if I’ll scream on the way down. Tell me, is it just nothing there? No cold, no bright, just an empty room? Does my mind erase like chalk on a board the second my chest stops moving? I’ve been hiding from the fact that I am fragile. If I stop, don't let me vanish. Please, don't let me vanish. Forget the coffin, forget the rain, I’m not scared of the pain of dying. I’m scared of losing my mind. I’m scared of becoming nobody. Don’t tell me it’s peaceful to go, I want to keep my anger, my blood, my flaws. If I cross that line, don't let them scrub me away. I don’t want a heaven full of perfect strangers. I don’t want to be peaceful if it means I forget. I want to stand at the edge of the end and demand answers for the mess we left. Why do we get a name just to lose it? Why do we learn to love just to leave it behind? If my body breaks apart tonight, let me stay angry. Let me stay me. Forget the coffin, forget the rain, I’m not scared of the pain of dying. I’m scared of losing my mind. I’m scared of becoming nobody. Don’t tell me it’s peaceful to go, I want to keep my anger, my blood, my flaws. If I cross that line, don't let them scrub me away.
