dad

[Verse] This is the best that it gets Fingers gripping the rail Knuckles pale and wet In the Gulf sun Sweating tears of regret I'm not a masochist I don't like pain Or getting kicked in the shins But every once in a while I visit my dad And think about doing it again I think about doin' it again [Pre-Chorus] I watch you figure out who you are And I wish I didn't figure out who you are [Chorus] I've started saying "no" a lot And calling people "sweetie" Maybe if I understood you I wouldn't be so weird I used to like myself more But Hey You learn a lot about yourself From the people that you hate [Verse 2] I have all of your bad traits And none of the good I used to see you once a year Now I see you when I look in the mirror And I thought if I had a reason That it wouldn't hurt so bad But I did my best to understand I still don't want you in my life And that's just the way that it is And I know that you tried But I can't help but think Maybe this was my fault I could've been more of a help But then I realized Maybe you don't know yourself [Pre-Chorus] I watched you figure out who you are And I wish I didn't figure out who you are I've started saying "no" a lot And calling people "sweetie" Maybe if I understood you I wouldn't be so weird I used to like myself more But Hey You learn a lot about yourself From the people that you hate