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I Never Belonged to You

[Intro — soft, airy vocals / piano or clean guitar]I once was a girl climbing trees,Skipping rocks where the creek ran free.Dancing barefoot with my boombox loud,Spinning circles underneath the clouds. My biggest fear was the latest trend,And if by Friday I’d find some friends.A little girl with scraped-up knees,Still believing the world was sweet. [Verse 1 — soft, reflective]My parents never took me to church,But I still felt You calling first.Calling out through the quiet air,Like a voice from a face not there. I didn’t know Your name back then,But I felt You move like a holy wind.Somewhere deep where my soul could hear,A whisper saying, “Child, I’m near.” [Pre-Chorus — building, drums begin low]But years went dark,And shadows came.I found a manWith violent flames.He called it love,But love don’t bruise.Love don’t own.Love don’t use. [Chorus — emotional rock vocals, rising]I hid the terror, I hid the pain,Hid every bruise and carried the shame.Not a little girl, not fully grown,Nineteen years old with two babies of my own. I was breaking, I was bleeding,But heaven was still reaching.Through every wall I couldn’t crawl through,God was calling,“I never gave up on you.” [Verse 2 — darker, more intense]He broke my spirit, broke my heart,Hung my fear like unholy art.Made me feel like I was small,Like I was nothing, nothing at all. It was always lies,All twisted truth.His words were blades,His hands were proof.No one else saw what I could see,The violence staring back at me. [Pre-Chorus 2 — heavier guitars creeping in]He never loved,He only chained.He never healed,He only blamed.But somewhere under all that ash,A holy fire was coming back. [Chorus — powerful, half-sung / half-belted]I hid the terror, I hid the pain,Hid every bruise and carried the shame.Not a little girl, not fully grown,Nineteen years old with two babies of my own. I was breaking, I was bleeding,But heaven was still reaching.Through every wall I couldn’t crawl through,God was calling,“I never gave up on you.” [Bridge — soft again, almost whispered]Then one day I heard You call,The Creator’s voice behind those walls.I didn’t understand it all quite yet,But something in my soul had finally metThe One I’d known before I knew,The voice that whispered,“I made you.” You crushed the lie,You named the pain,You showed me I was not the shame.Not weak, not owned, not his to claim,A mother with a brilliant mindAnd a holy kind of flame. [Breakdown — music drops, then explodes]I never belonged to him.I never belonged to fear.I never belonged to the handsThat tried to keep me there. I never belonged to darkness.I never belonged to shame.I never belonged to violence.I belong to the One who called my name. [Metal Breakdown — screamed / raging vocals]I BROKE THOSE CHAINS!I LEFT THAT GRAVE!I TOOK MY CHILDRENAND I WALKED AWAY! YOU WANTED ME SILENT!YOU WANTED ME DEAD!BUT GOD PUT A CROWNON MY BATTLE-SCARRED HEAD! I AM NOT YOURS!I NEVER WAS!YOU LOST YOUR HOLD!I CHOSE THE BLOODOF THE LAMB, THE LIGHT, THE FIRE, THE TRUTH!I RAN FROM HELLAND GOD PULLED ME THROUGH! [Final Chorus — huge, emotional, clean vocals with screams behind]I’m older now, and wise am I,I see the danger before I know why.I set my boundaries, I stand right here,I broke those chains, there’s no more fear. The hold he had is gone at last,Nothing more than a violent past.He tried to break me, wanted me dead,But I chose bravery instead. I chose the light,I chose the path,I chose the God who brought me back.And when my scars still bleed sometimes,I remember who saved my life. [Outro — soft vocals returning, peaceful but strong]I once was a girl climbing trees,Skipping rocks where the creek ran free.Now I’m a woman who survived the flame,And I still hear GodCalling my name. I am not the dark I walked through.I am not what he tried to do.I am the mother, the fighter, the truth.And I never,Never,Belonged to you.