[Intro] (yeah) I was just a kid tryna hold the whole damn house together When no one else did... [Verse 1] They took my sister away, said she was “unsafe” But I watched her cry behind that cold-ass face Social workers in the hall, mom screaming in rage I was hiding in my room, but I still heard every page They said I was too young to understand it all But I was old enough to see my family fall Police lights in the night, scissors in her hand She tried to kill them both… and I still don’t understand [Pre-Chorus] I see it when I close my eyes All the blood, all the lies Can’t sleep, can’t breathe Just another panic night [Chorus] I'm sorry I grew up broken I wasn't the perfect token You gave her all the love, I was just outspoken Took the beatings, took the blame Now I'm high just to kill the pain PTSD got my brain in chains I just wanna be okay... [Verse 2] I was the youngest, but felt the oldest Tried to be the glue, but nobody noticed Fights at dinner, cops at dawn Losing her was like my soul got torn They said she was sick, but no one got the cure Just pills, and screams, and slamming doors Bullied at school, cried in bed But no one asked what’s in my head So I smoked it, drank it, numbed it all I ain't proud, but I ain't fall Not yet, still here, barely whole Still that kid tryna fix a home [Bridge] She was on everything before she left Pills, powder, pain, and death I wish I could’ve saved her soul But I was just a child in a war so cold [Chorus] I'm sorry I grew up broken I wasn't the perfect token You gave her all the love, I was just outspoken Took the beatings, took the blame Now I'm high just to kill the pain PTSD got my brain in chains I just wanna be okay... [Outro] All I wanted was a normal day A family that didn’t slip away Now I light up just to hide From the flashbacks I got inside Too young to be strong But I held on way too long...
