# SPECIAL KIND OF SICK **[INTRO — whispered / distorted bass]** Yeah… I know better. That's the worst part. I know better. **[VERSE 1 — half-spoken, tight funky groove]** Got a taste and I wanted another Little lie dressed up like a lover Said, “Relax, man, nobody knows” While the poison started working slow Put a halo on a loaded gun Called it freedom when I pulled it once Everybody says, “Do what feels right” Funny how wrong can feel so alive **[PRE-CHORUS]** I know the door I know the floor I know exactly where this goes Still I walk in Still I want it Still I tell myself I’m in control **[CHORUS — HUGE / DISTORTED]** **Sick, sick, sick— I love what kills me. Sweet, sweet lie— Tell me I’m free.** **I call the cage a kingdom I call the chains my choice But the Shepherd keeps on calling And I finally know His voice.** **Sick, sick, sick— I don't wanna die free. Break the lie, break the chain— Jesus, come and rescue me.** **[VERSE 2 — swaggering]** I know the trick and I know the disguise Put a little truth underneath the lies Tell myself, “This is who I am” Like a chain is freedom if I call it a plan I don't want chains I want choices So why do I keep obeying voices? I say, “Nobody gets to tell me no” Then wonder why I can't let go **[PRE-CHORUS]** I know the taste I know the face I know exactly what I'm feeding I call it hunger I call it need Anything but what it really is **[CHORUS]** **Sick, sick, sick— I love what kills me. Sweet, sweet lie— Tell me I’m free.** **I call the cage a kingdom I call the chains my choice But the Shepherd keeps on calling And I finally know His voice.** **Sick, sick, sick— I don't wanna die free. Break the lie, break the chain— Jesus, come and rescue me.** **[BRIDGE — sudden silence / whispered]** Don't call me innocent. I knew. I knew. I knew. **[Bass returns]** I knew where it led. I knew what it cost. I knew what I'd lose. And I went anyway. **[BUILD]** I called it freedom— **You called it slavery.** I called it pleasure— **You called it death.** I called myself my own— **You called me Yours.** **[EXPLOSIVE FINAL CHORUS]** **Sick, sick, sick— I love what kills me. Sweet, sweet lie— You never owned me.** **I called the cage a kingdom I called the chains my choice But the Shepherd kept on calling— Now I know His voice.** **Sick, sick, sick— But I'm not too far gone. Break the lie, break the chain— **Jesus, lead me home.** **[OUTRO — stripped to bass and voice]** I called it freedom. You called me home. I called the chains my choice. You broke them. **[whisper]** I'm finally free.
