early morning September I remember sun rising like red ember it was just another beautiful day just like yourself if only you chose to stay I've been broken since you took your life away I'm struggling with it "what if I would of......" "If only I could of......." "I probably should of........" words that rerun in my head like a broken record skipping on my broken heart I waited on your steps for you like i I've done countless times before minutes grew to an hour then 2 still not even a text from you I went to knock I checked the handle it was unlocked i yelled your name no response I could see shadows being casted from a muted tv and the smell of burnt toast I kept thinking (MAYBE) you just overslept (MAYBE) something came up (MAYBE) she just ran to the store that's the reason why she didn't answer the door I'm struggling with it "what if I would of......" "If only I could of......." "I probably should of........" words that rerun in my head like a broken record skipping on my broken heart but there I stood all the signs were there an uneasy feeling settling in and as I inched closer I could see something outside your open door I barged down that hall for reasons why i can't remember I found you slumped over ur bed gunshot to the head every wall colored red finding your lifeless body . really shattered me the questions came pouring in why was she so selfish she knew I'd find her. did she try to make it as messy as she could and that's a question there's no answer to . I'm struggling with it "what if I would of......" "If only I could of......." "I probably should of........" words that rerun in my head like a broken record skipping on my broken heart
