i wish I could've been your hero (raw and depressing lo-fi remix)

[Intro] If I could've been your hero I swear I would've tried Seven years later I still wish you were by my side [Verse 1] You were the first girl who ever made love feel real Before I knew how deep a broken heart could feel Then one awful day somebody took you away And I've wished a million times I could rewrite that day I wish I'd been there, wish I'd somehow known Wish I could've stopped it and brought you safely home But wishing doesn't change what I couldn't control And I've spent seven years letting that guilt eat a hole [Pre-Chorus] I wanted to be the hero I wanted to save the day But I was just a kid Who couldn't make the worst thing go away [Chorus] I wish you never passed away I wish I never lost you that day I miss you so fucking much More than these broken words can say You were the best thing The best thing that happened to me And every time love leaves again That old curse comes haunting me I wish I could've been your hero But I couldn't change that day [Post-Chorus] I miss you I miss you God, I fucking miss you [Verse 2] Every breakup since has made the old wound ache Like every goodbye proves I'm destined to break I call it a curse when I'm angry and alone Like everyone I ever love eventually goes But maybe grief taught me to expect goodbye Maybe losing you made every ending multiply You were my first love, the first home in my heart And losing you doesn't mean I'm cursed from the start [Pre-Chorus] Still I wanted to save you Still I wish I could I'd trade every useless what-if If wishing ever could [Chorus] I wish you never passed away I wish I never lost you that day I miss you so fucking much More than these broken words can say You were the best thing The best thing that happened to me And every time love leaves again That old curse comes haunting me I wish I could've been your hero But I couldn't change that day [Break] Seven years Five heartbreaks One memory I can't replace One first love One old photograph One thousand things I wish I could have back I would've been your hero If love alone could save But I can't keep blaming that kid For what somebody else did that day [Bridge] You were the best thing that ever happened to me And maybe that's why losing you still cuts so deep I miss your laugh I miss your name I miss who I was before everything changed I wish I could tell you I'm sorry one more time For all these years I thought your loss was somehow mine I couldn't be a hero I couldn't know what came But I loved you then And I'll remember you the same [Build] Not a curse Just a scar Not a failure Just a heart That loved somebody And lost her too soon Seven years later I still remember you [Final Chorus] I wish you never passed away I wish I never lost you that day I miss you so fucking much And that will never fade away You were the best thing The best thing that happened to me And even when love leaves again That doesn't mean I'm cursed to be I wish I could've been your hero I wish I could've changed that day But I'll carry all the love you gave me Without carrying all the blame [Final Post-Chorus] I miss you I miss you God, I fucking miss you You were the best thing The best thing I'll always remember you [Outro] I wish I could've saved you I really do But I couldn't control what happened And I'm trying to understand that You were my first love You were the best thing that ever happened to me And wherever my life goes from here I'll never forget you Goodnight