GYNNIFER B - Cold Start (Chasing Mercy Remix)

How are you this morning? I don’t even know anymore… Cold start… screen glow in my face Another message I don’t wanna trace I’m paying for a life that I don’t feel Holding together something not real You say “it’s fine”… you say “just wait” I’m watching numbers drop below zero weight Everything’s mine… except the relief I’m drowning quiet underneath I didn’t notice… didn’t see How it all landed back on me I’m tired of holding everything together While you stand still like nothing matters I’m breaking slow but I don’t show Just smile like I’m supposed to I’m running empty… still I give I don’t know how I’m supposed to live When it’s always me… always me… Holding everything He reads the message… says nothing back Just another crack… another crack Must be nice to sit inside A house I pay for… while I hide I make more… but not enough To carry all this broken stuff It’s not the money… it’s the weight Of being everyone’s escape I’m tired of holding everything together While you stand still like nothing matters I’m breaking slow but I don’t show Just smile like I’m supposed to I’m running empty… still I give I don’t know how I’m supposed to live When it’s always me… always me… Holding everything I took my meds… I’ll go numb soon Turn it off… like I always do Put the mask back… play the role Dispatch voice… no control It was easier to feel nothing Even if it killed something