Tired of Trying

Slow, smoky modern blues with female vocals; brushed kit and warm upright bass under a close-mic’d vocal, muted electric guitar answering each line, Verses stay intimate and low, Hammond organ swells in the chorus with stacked harmonies for ache and lift, Subtle reverb, a late-song half-step key lift for emotional push, then back down to a hushed, bare ending, soulful, melancholy, female vocals, blues

[Verse 1] Coffee gone cold on the counter Keys on a nail by the door Same four walls Same worn carpet Feels like I’ve lived here before Telling my truth in a whisper Watching their faces turn tight They say they love how my heart is Then they look once and take flight [Chorus] I’m so tired of trying Tired of hearing “you’re so kind” While you pick me apart Like a crime in your mind You say I’m gold on the inside But you flinch at what you see I’m so tired of trying So tired of trying To make you stay with me [Verse 2] Every scar’s got a story That nobody waited to hear They want the shine Not the journey They want the smile Not the fear I’m standing still on your timeline You say I should “be there” by now You never felt these empty cupboards You never pulled sweat from your brow [Chorus] I’m so tired of trying Tired of reaching for your hand Just to watch you recoil Like I’m more than you can stand You say you love how my soul sings But my skin makes you retreat I’m so tired of trying So tired of trying To be enough for you to keep [Bridge] I’m running out of maybes Running out of “give it time” Every “almost” cuts me open Every “sorry” steals my shine So I’ll build myself a quiet room Bolt that heavy door If my truth keeps getting punished What am I confessing for? (oh) [Chorus] ’Cause I’m so tired of trying Tired of climbing dead-end roads Every step feels like a lifetime Every “no” adds to the load You say you love how my heart loves But my face makes you disagree I’m so tired of trying So tired of trying Might close the door on me [Outro] Lights off early this evening Phone facedown by the bed If you ever really wondered All the answers went unsaid I’m so tired of trying So tired I can’t speak If you’re looking for my open heart It’s taking a long Long sleep

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