I learned the thumbnails, learned the tags Chased every trend until it passed Bought the lights, upgraded sound Still feels like no one comes around I talked to chat when chat was dead Played like a thousand people cared Another stream, another night Another zero staring back in white They say, “Just keep going, you never know” I’ve heard that line a thousand times before How long do you knock on a locked front door Before you stop believing there’s something more? Why do I keep trying When nobody’s watching? Why do I keep shouting Into nothing at all? I gave years to the algorithm And it never gave a damn YouTube failed, the streams went nowhere Maybe this is all I am Still I wake up with another idea Like I haven’t learned a thing I swear I’m done every single night Then tomorrow I try again I changed my name, I changed my style Studied retention by the mile Shorts, long-form, live at ten Deleted half and started again Everybody says it only takes one One lucky break and then you’ve won But I’ve been waiting on “one” so long I don’t know if hope is keeping me strong Why do I keep trying When nobody’s watching? Why do I keep shouting Into nothing at all? I gave years to the algorithm And it never gave a damn YouTube failed, the streams went nowhere Maybe this is all I am Still I wake up with another idea Like I haven’t learned a thing I swear I’m done every single night Then tomorrow I try again But what happens when I stop? Who am I without all this? If nobody ever knows my name Did any of it exist? I don’t need a million people I don’t need the whole damn world I just wanted something I made To matter to somebody else So why do I keep trying When nobody’s watching? Why do I keep building Just to watch it fall? I gave years to the algorithm It never had a plan Maybe failure isn’t losing Maybe failure’s where I am There’s nothing left in me that wonders There’s no “next time” in my head Every idea I ever had Feels like it’s already dead I swear I’m done every single night Close the laptop, kill the lights when tomorrow comes this time I don’t try again.
