StarLight

I've lost count of the days In this padded serenity haze Wish the nurses would rip off That wicked, painted face I smile right back when they grin Oooh I like to play their games Arms locked tight in a jacket Last one snapped at the seam They keep pumping their lies in pills But I stash what I never will Wait until they finally notice Where I bury them I rock in the corner, yeah I sway Try to hush what the voices say (shhh) They creep through these horror walls Like they’re permanent seams of this place They say “you’re safe”… “you’re stable” But it’s just a twisted Aesop's fable Just a story they tell Nothing more Nothing more (you’ll never leave!) I can peer through the crack Of the sorrow filled window Gifted by Mother And the song she left me She sang Star light... (STARLIGHT!) Star bright... (STARBRIGHT!) First star I see tonight I wish I may, I wish I MAY Be at peace...tonight (TONIGHT) I hear her out in the hall See my name in the chart that she writes But it’s all fabricated Every word is a lie She watches me while I sleep Through a lens in the corner, it blinks red I can feel when she’s smiling Like she knows what I’ve seen But she don’t know what I know Bout her and Dr. Hale Thought I drifted off slow But I tracked every detail I saw it all, every move Every whisper, every sin Tried to dig way too deep in my skin Etched her name just to prove They cut me off at the end Before I finished it, “Hale” Now they keep my nails short and controlled After last time I failed. Failed! Now in the moonlight I peer through the crack Of that tiny little window Gifted by Mother And the song she left me She sang Star light... (STARLIGHT!) Star bright... (STARBRIGHT!) First star I see tonight I wish I may, I wish I MAY Be at peace...tonight (TONIGHT) I've played along for so long now They think that I’m "stable" somehow Out of the jacket I breathe But the voices get louder now They whisper “run when it opens” They tell me “don’t let them close it” So I wait... in the silence Every second I hold it Then the door opens Star light… Star bright… Only star I see tonight…