hark the forthcoming

I thought I’d end up louder than this With a fire that never cooled I chased the shape of someone else Called it love, called it truth I was certain I’d be chosen By the things I couldn’t keep I kept my fists around my anger And my promises ran deep It didn’t turn out how I planned It turned out how it had to I stand here with what’s left in my hands And somehow it’s enough now too She moved on, I stayed back To clean the mess I made It didn’t turn into the life I wanted But it turned into something solid I can stand inside this quiet Without reaching for a reason I know my weak points now I don’t guard them with anger I let them exist somehow It makes me stronger I used to think being alone Meant something was wrong Now it feels more like space Room to move Room to stay I’ve got friends I would’ve buried If I stayed the way I was Men who saw me at my worst And didn’t call it love I burned the rooms I hid inside I let the mirror win I stopped asking who I was And faced who I had been It didn’t turn out how I planned But it turned out how it had to I stand here with what’s left in my hands Somehow it’s enough now too She moved on, I stayed back To clean the mess I made If love comes back, it’ll find me Not asking who I’ve been Not asking who I’ve been