[Verse 1 — Faith] I started with the answers Before I knew the questions, A child beneath a sacred roof, Surrounded by conviction. I sang the words they gave me, I trusted every page— My faith became my shelter, My certainty, my cage. [Verse 2 — Questions and Fear] But questions found the cracks at night And slipped into my mind: “If this is everlasting truth, Why must I fear what I might find?” I feared the fires of judgment, I feared my family’s shame, I feared that if I questioned God, He might erase my name. [Pre-Chorus — Investigation] But doubt was not my enemy— It opened up the door. I followed every question To a thousand questions more. I studied gods and scriptures, The fossils and the stars; And every honest answer Pulled the curtain back too far. [Chorus — Collapse] Then everything came falling down— The walls, the roof, the floor. The world that once protected me Could hold my mind no more. I stood among the ruins With nowhere left to hide— An apostate to certainty, But finally alive. [Verse 3 — Truth] I learned that truth needs no defense, No threat, no sacred disguise. It does not fear investigation Or punish asking why. I traded easy answers For the courage not to know, And found that honest uncertainty Could be the place I grow. [Bridge — Reconstruction] So stone by stone, I built again— Not heaven in the sky, But meaning rooted in this life, In how I love and why. Compassion is my compass, And evidence my light; Wonder needs no miracle To fill the world tonight. [Final Chorus — Emergence] Now I emerge from underneath The weight of borrowed fear. The person I was meant to be Was waiting for me here. I lost the faith that held me, But found a deeper view— The truth did not destroy me; The truth helped me break through. [Finale] Faith became a question, The question became fear; Fear became a journey That made the pathway clear. The journey brought the ending Of all I thought I knew— Then truth became reconstruction, And I emerged… Anew. [Reprise — softly, then rising] I am not lost. I am not broken. I am not waiting to be saved. My mind is free, My eyes are open— I found the life I was afraid To claim. I walked out of the darkness, No longer bound by fate— I did not lose my soul… I became Apostate.
