in mem

i don't remember anymore i don't remember anymore I don't want to remember anymore what can I help but remember anymore you left the world in the way that you deemed appropriate, unfair maybe but what is it that seemed acceptable in your motions? edges off of which I have careened I can't remember anymore I can't help but find myself in between seams of utter recognition it seems how the world might play these scenes over and over again i don't remember anymore i don't remember anymore I don't want to remember anymore what can I help but remember anymore too much stress i contain but it's nothing anyway just another entryway in vain to infiltrate another vein are you part of the game? NO I DON'T WANT TO REFRAIN I BROKE THE FUCKING PICTURE FRAME and there I sat waiting waiting are you remembering or performing what's considering underneath the surface? you don't remember anymore i don't remember anymore I don't want to remember anymore what can I help but remember anymore inside the winner's score can I engender a chore to even up what's mine and what is yours? broken I sit staring at my phone screen hoping and maybe caring is it what it seems? unbroken I sit daring myself to not just scream what am I describing? just another fictional scene or is it reality in between the moments to have been bled into the rhythm a perfusion of the system invoked to bring about schism within the mind thus given are you really forgiven? are you really for the living? or is it just art you're pushing out hoping it'll be true one day without any devotion to the purpose? what remains when you're gone? will you ever let yourself know just what it means to let go? i don't remember anymore i don't remember anymore I don't want to remember anymore what can I help but remember anymore BROKEN NO MAYBE FIXED MAGNETIC FIELDS COMMIT ALIGNMENT AND THUS IT HITS LIKE FOX TO PREY TO WIT but aren't you just a serpent crawling about on your belly made filthy by what fell to be the detritus and scattered debris? do you feel the tension, the aches that remain given in the pit of your existential wisdom? or is it a void of condemned whims! i don't remember anymore i don't remember anymore I don't want to remember anymore what can I help but remember anymore but I have no choice left yet to listen to the voice echoing in my mind and hoist myself higher upon the moment wondering if I can own it I remember everything except the key detail to resolve regret